Da^MaNtOu [10]

2008-02-27T00:50:00.002+08:00

damn it la. i seem to lost my blog. as in, it's so weird to jump from 2007 to 2008. can see that i've been MIA in blogging for quite some time. -.-'' geez maybe wanna start another new blog and throw away this old one. =/ but feel kind of pity le. this blog contains so much of my sec sch life. cool..! lol...too bad i'm having revision for my last paper tml. i'll come back and scan through my blog past entries once away when i've got the time.

2008-02-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

oo crap. i realise that jinyong is gay! copy part of my entry and post it in eunice's tagboard. jinyong, u simply gt nothing better to do. got time go read up on how to handle relationship la.

by the way, i sat for my first paper this morning - MBS. it's pretty hard...maybe because lenny aw never give us hint liao. zzz wonder which ass set that paper, though it's pretty straightforward but aiya..overall is a difficult paper. now got to work hard for the rest of the papers liao. =/ right now studying Ob and have'nt start my macro, bus stats and fa2. zzz..

hmm..guess i go and study Ob liao.

2008-02-20T11:22:00.002+08:00

woot! i'm back again. lol. hmm..exam is coming, just a few days later and i've yet to finish up my revision. X_X must aim for GPA 4.0 for this sem though it's kind of hard, thanks to my bus stats which i got B for coursework. anyway, my gal is back to blogging and she even bought a domain last night. =S which means her blog ends with .com rather than blogspot.com and that stupid crap domain cost SGD $20?! well, seems like i've got nothing to post liao. zzz..

2008-02-13T22:52:00.002+08:00

woot! nothing better to do..so decided to come and post an entry here. lol!~ hmm, exam's round the corner. so stress up..afraid that i can't get 3.5 and above for my GPA. zzz...furthermore, mum keep nagging and nagging..wah bth~! forget about it la...slowly take my time and study. lmao. oh yea, went to express teppanyaki just now with my gal to "celebrate" vday. the food there is not too bad and it's CHEAP!! haha, talking about vday..which is jus tml~ i don't know wanna do what to surprise my gal leh. -.-''' perhaps buying flowers will do. =D but it's damn paiseh for a guy to hold on the flower and walking around leh. =X perhaps my ego damn high? lol...let's see whether i can get one tml after i went for my gym. =p

ok time's up..gg back to study.

2007-11-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

Woo..nothing to do. so decided to come update blog a bit. haha..and is seriously a bit! lol~ well i jus wanna say i'm back to mapling! ^^ it's a good or bad thing? haha..rather nice lar. now lvl 59 liao~ =X hope faster lvl 100? o.O hahaha..aiya nth to say le..

oh yah..regarding my sch life. everything is going well i guess? except that my project grp pretty suck big time! i jus don't get it why because of one particular gal and we got to draw lots for project grp instead of forming ur own one. it's so dam pathetic -.- hope my project don't get screwed up by her lor. hai..somemore is Financial Accounting.. if screwed up, Good Game. LOL~

that's all. see ya~

2007-09-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

woo!!! tiring day~! haha. could'nt slp well last nite, keep getting up and sit down a while. after that, went back to slp again. haax... hmm, i woke up pretty early this morning, around 10am or 11am? i myself forget the time too. =x after waking up, run errands for mum and go out!!!

went to orchard with my gal this afternoon. we went to eat wanton mee at HMV. then we shop HMV. the fourskin shop was pretty interesting. lol, wanna buy the bag there and some of the clothes. =x but the bag quite ex lar. hmm, we went to taka later to buy teddy bear for my gal. haha, coz i got taka voucher which mk gave me like last week? =p in the end, i jus have to fork out 20 cents for tat cute teddy. WOO. naturally our legs got tired after all those walking and we decided go to cafe to take a break. unfortunately, did'nt have a any cafe. even if there is one, no space. =( thus, we decided to go back to tamp!!! and enjoy the starbuck coffee at TM. muahaha.

dear bot a american muffin and a mocha? woo. taste great man. =xxx after that i send her home and go training lo. training today was pretty gd lar. but i don't know why i feel so nervous when the trainining officially starts.. haha perhaps because of that guy bah. hate working with him. luckily, when play match, i'm not in the same team as him. phew~ yea..

well well such a long and tiring day. i am dog tired. time to say.. good bye yea!

2007-09-15T15:50:00.000+08:00

anyone has any idea where to go out during weekends or free time? lol..i totally ran out of places in singapore to hang out man. this is getting boring. haha..quite of sad though today, coz i did'nt go out with my gal. =( but it's ok maybe we can go out tml, yea? =p oh yea, who slept with her is a nice movie. lol..very hilarious! =X don't be misled by the title of the show lar. though it's kind of hmm.. with that title but it's not really that type of show. quite a bit like sex and comedy show yea..? but no sex scene. haha!!! people who read my blog, can go try to catch it at crunchyroll. lol!!! guess i stop here bah. ^^ life's good, peeps!

2007-09-13T02:10:00.000+08:00

think whatever you want. my conscience is clear. i have no fucking other meaning or desire. it is jus pure shock. if u think i am thinking otherwise, sad to say. you don't know me AT ALL.

2007-09-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

hey. yo. i got back my exam results liao. wahaha..though not very good, well i am still kind of satisfied. lol..financial accounting B+, POM B, comm skill B+, microecon A, csa A. haha..good or bad? =x

anyway it's kind of cool to receive my results via sms. lol!!! i was shopping at bugis street with my girl and she suddenly receive a msg showing her results. and i got damn excited..lol. next moment i hear my phone ringing and i guess i received mine too yea? lol..very highly effecient. TP admin GOOD STUFF! =x after that, i ringed up my mum i told her. zzz instead of hearing good job, i got nagged for not working hard enough. god damn it. i admit i told her i am not very satisfied with it..but at least show some encouragement wad. hai..whatever lar.

by the way, went to bugis. yea. feeling quite bored though. coz whenever i go walk walk outside, no money to buy. in simple term, i am jus wasting my time. hahaha!! life jus sux when i could'nt buy the things i want. all down to $$$. oh god!

2007-09-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

hey. yo. came to update again. haha.. hmm..today seem pretty bad i guess? never got time to accompany my girl to go out all this. now she's kind of bored at home and not feeling well. rest well k, my girl? hope to accompany you tml ya? smile~! HEHE =D by the way, my application for SBA in POSB like quite successful. if so, i may be able to start work this sat le. yup..i'm glad that i can finally earn some allowance for my ownself. cheers. but not to forget, mus be grateful to dear and her mum for going so far to help me in getting this job. i love it, thank you.

hmm..seems like i have nth much to tok about. jus wanna apolgoise to my dearest darling that i can't accompany u much today. sorry. sigh~

2007-09-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

ok there goes the old and irritating entry. =p hahaha..long time nvr blog or what le lo!!! my hols jus started and currently finding some job to do. by the way, i went to parkway today with dear, yd and jennifer. lol..go there nothing to do..went to play pool. seriously, the pool table and the balls there are much much better as compared to safra tampines. =x but quite ex also lar..hahaha~ in the end one person around $5 exlcluding jennifer, coz she like jus down there poking those balls. hmm, sound so wrong. hahaha!!! anyway after tat, we went home of coz~! hmm..tml got interview to a job, don't know whether i should go anot.. o.O

2007-07-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

DAMN DAMN DAMN. projects are so tiring!!! WOO!!! finally got to stop and go rest liao. bth, projects are making me damn tired. zzZzzz..i've been doing POM presentation slides, editing POM report and adding some stuff into my dear's DEMAND AND SUPPLY report. hahaha!! well, dear was rather angry by some of the public in bnet. chill ok? well, they simply suck big time lar. fancy themselves scolding a girl so much vulgarities and pushing all the blames to her when they died. what a sore loser man!!! all i can do is to HOPE i get a new com asap!!! so that i will be able to play dota with my dear again. Wee =P i can still remember vividly, my dear bot DR then she was dying...and i was chasing her like hell. my dagon cooldown jus nice over and i killl her with my dagon!!! lol!!! then she angry with me >.< HAHAHA kind of funny to think of it. sweet memories, yea. dear jiayou~~~

2007-07-24T00:39:00.000+08:00

Not to forget. HAPPY 24, MY DEAR!

2007-07-24T00:32:00.000+08:00

out of a sudden, i find that my life is kind of boring actually. wonder how can i make it more lively more interesting. what should i do? any guidance from people..? lol, please don't give me stupid answers such as go and die or what. =X Hmm, hope life gets better as i move on. yeah, anyway my accounting class test today, suck big time. don't know how am i going to tell my mum when i get shit results. she pin high hopes on me and expect me and score at least B for all subjects. well, i don't really get stress by it. but the problem is how am i going to explain to her when i did'nt meet up to her expectation? she will just keep saying that i always hang out, never study which is not the truth. oh god, this is sad. haha...and not to forget, i am getting like 3 ulcers in my mouth. damn, it is damn painful man. so hard to spicy foods!!! ARGH!!!! and i also got some sort of mosquito bites on my chest, is it dengue fever symptoms? HOPE NOT! =XxX

2007-07-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

i finally understood the feeling of scolding my teammates when they make a mistake during match. i just got this kind of feeling during my Saturday basketball training. i was damn pissed off by him for scolding some mistakes i made. perhaps, it was retribution i got for scolding my teammates when i was in secondary school. now, i realized that i was'nt so good in basketball after all. there is a very huge gap in between, i wonder what is obstructing me. i really wanna play well. i need help.

2007-07-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

oh yeah, weekend is approaching soon! =p wonder what am i going to do during my weekend. definitely, i will be going out with my dear. lol!!! just finish watching initial d second stage 13. this episode is so sad lah during the last part of the show. =((( so touching!!! oh man, i am going crazy over initial d!!! anyway, i wanted to do my POM after i bathe. but damn it, the show is too interesting that i keep watching and i totally forget that i need to do my POM!!! =S but never mind lah, tml still can do.

hmm, one thing i just noticed is that right now when i am blogging, there is something like microsoft word to correct ur spelling error. lol!!! wanna go chat on the phone and slp loh!

bye.

2007-07-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

i don't know why are u getting so fucking work up. i just advising u that maybe ur time management got prob. but from what i see, u look as if i was critisizing u or what. i never mean anything serious lor. i was jus merely giving u advice yet u are getting so worked up. i think it's better to look things positively. i know u are racing against time and u don't know how to do. i also don't know how to do. but it's better to cool down and think. if u are really unable to do, nvm at least u tried ur best. u won't nvr concentrate well and will only get the worse of it if u keep getting frustrated over it. it's time to chill.

2007-07-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

woo..i got an urge to write a song for you and me. Hee..don't ask me why. i jus wanna write. wish me luck, man!!!

2007-07-01T01:55:00.000+08:00

Hey hey, it's sunday liao. was about to say satudary, too bad the clock has passed 12am liao. hmm, this morning wake up rather early 930am? jus to play bball with my sec sch friends. haha, it's being quite some time since we play bball together liao. was quite fun though...was practising my dribbling with them as usual. HEE..working hard on it man!!! =) we played till noon and me and yd decided to go home liao. coz we gonna meet gf to go out le. initially, yd wanted to watch transformer with me and eunice. unfortunately, jenni prefer to go to marina, so too bad...he got to follow her..if not her landmine explodes!!! hahaha!!!

finally, i got home..study a bit and fell asleep! =x was too tired le..then wake up again, get ready to watch TRANSFORMER!!! hahaha!!! when me and dar reach CS le, it was damn crowded. it was damn adnormal. but who cares lar. we bot a 450pm transformer. that bloody ticket auntie bluff me. she told me the seat is 7 row away..but don't know where. when i enter the cinema, it was 7 row away from the back. bloody hell, but nvm..forget it and to be honest, i enjoyed the movie a lot. oh god..i wan a transformer too man!!! lol!!! it's cool!!! everyone should get a ticket now for transformer...

it was about 710 when the show ended. then have to go training lo..!!! at bedok..haha..took the same bus as dar and she alighted first. when i reach, i did'nt manage to complete my shooting. damn suay...then start training..then arnd 945 end. and again i use the time to start training my shooting again lo..!!! haha..bball is fun man..~ after that my teammate drove me home..and yeah.no more interesting part to share le..lol..late liao..bye blog.

2007-06-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today is tuesday liao. haha..so eager to get back my term test paper.was wondering whether i did well for it? hahaha..hope i do so. if not my mum will disappointed, somemore i guranteed her that i confirm can score well one. =X never mind lar, mus have confident in myself. that's what i am best at!!!

well, another thing in my mind is that when can i get a new computer man!!! i am like so despo to play dota man!!! everyday go to dear's hse, confirm will play at least one game of dota. anyway, i startin to fall in love with another new hero - Drow Ranger!!! hahaha, that's a gay hero but i love it man!!! even though i play so much dota ar, still not that pro yet lar. just an average player. MUhahaha..

Furthermore, to add on this blog post is that..i did'nt get selected for TP basketball team. haha..but i am not very disappointed or what lar, coz i expected it. the competition for place in the team is so hard, even if i got in the team, i will only warm the bench and do nothing. hope that my training at bro's club can groom into a better player. HEE..i think that's all for today liao lar. no more to tok about. oh yeah, one more thing!!! I WONDER PLAY POOL!

LIFE'S GOOD!

2007-06-07T15:24:00.000+08:00

Hmm..so time pass so quickly and tml is the end of term test lo!!! hahaha..can't wait to go watch zodiac tml, looks like a good show to watch leh. hope this show does'nt disappoint me tml. anyway, i am starting to fall in love with pool again!!! woo!!! lol...pool is damn fun sia. went to pool yesterdae with my friends and dear. little did i know that, my dear did a double kill. omG!!! i play pool for so long nvr even double kill before sia. ever since that double kill, she keep showing off her double kill liao. bth.. Hmm, don't know when then i can play my dota again =( it's been quite some time and my graphic card and AGP slot spoil le..then cannot play dota. damn sad!!! i wanna learn how to play SA!!! wahaha..

tml is accounting test liao, hope i can get A or Z. muhahaha!! after the exam can enjoy lo!!!! =) lastly, hope my bro is fine with his shoulder.. =p

2007-06-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

hmm, it's been a very long time since i update blog liao. haha..about few months ago? now in poly and term test is jus next week liao lo..mus study hard to get Z for my econs!!! hahaha..anyway, my dear is very moody recently..hope she can cheer up bah. perhaps she see me finally updating my blog, will cheer up by a little bit. =X

2007-03-27T02:12:00.000+08:00

why can't i kill u in a game? hai...i really don't get it why. hai i jus don't get it why u mus so piss off or even sian over it lar. did i really do such a big mistake..hai, maybe i should'nt play that game or what bah..sux. my birthdae really suck big time..

2007-03-26T13:03:00.000+08:00

i really did'nt know that my birthdae is a fucking piece of shit day. fuck this birthday.

2007-03-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

this is another song in Music and Lyrics soundtrack. and the title is don't write me off..another beautiful song too..=)

It's never been easy for me
To find words that go along with a melody
But this time there's actually somthing on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines
Since I met you my whole life has changed
It's not just the furniture you re-arrangedI was living in the past
But somehow you brought me backand I havn't felt like this since before Frankie said relax
and now I know based on my track record
I may not seem like the safest bet
All I'm asking you is
Don't write me off just yet

For years I've been telling myself the same old story
That I'm happy to live off my so called formor glorys
but you've given me a reason
to take another chance
now I need you inspite the fact
that you've killed all my plants
and now I know
that i've already blown more chances
then anyone should ever get
all I'm asking you is
don't write me off just yet
don't write me off just yet

2007-03-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

this is a song sang by hugh grant and haley bennett - way back into love. this is a damn nice song and the lyrics is nice. hope pple who view it will like it. =) anyway this song is a soundtrack from Music and Lyrics(a perfect movie)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh

2007-03-15T22:32:00.001+08:00

woo!!! todae was a damn tiring and yet enjoyable day. =) went to watch music and lyrics with my gal, tog with yd and jennifer. 2 couples tog..so cool sia!!! hahaha!!but the view are quite bad lar, got to strain my neck...hahahaha coz we are sitting second row from the front. ahahhaa!!! but after overall, the show was great!!! =) long time never watch movie with my gal le. hehe mus go kbox with her next time. never visit kbox for a long time also...hahaha!! anyway before we went for movie at vivo, we went to cathay and passed by one shop called " instant karma". i mus say i love the singlet there!!! and their singlets are far more cheaper than NUM. =( but still quite ex lar..$49 ~~ hope my mum can give me money go buy that singlet..man i am in love with singlets!!! maybe because of my muscles..hahahaha!!! better stop saying about my muscles le..if not my gal is going to get mad. muhahaha!!! guess i gotta stop here le..coz it's DOTA TIME!!!

2007-03-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i blog again. now i find that i always blog when i have some problems be it family or relationship. when right now i guess it's relationship problem bah. i know that my gal is feeling lost and down recently because of the SMSes i received from my friends. well, gal all i can is that..this is not ur fault at all. indeed it should be my fault. i am so sorry to hurt you. i did'nt mean it. to be honest, they are jus friends to me. pure friends and not more than that. u gonna trust me ok..? let's hope that things will go on smoothly like wat it used to be like..

2007-01-01T01:58:00.000+08:00

yeah..cheers..it's a brand new year again. welcome to 2007 ! hope that i can achieve great results for my 'o' level exam during this fed or march. and also.. i hope that my relationship can contiune to be as lovely and wonderful. lastly, not to forget...world peace!

well..i jus came back from countdown. this is my first experience going out so late and first time countindown with my friends. i was very happy and hope that i can contiune like this in the following years to come. while on the way to downtown, i meet dear on the bus. she was kind of sian sian. then i saw le..also kind of moody liao. quite sad bah...but after sometimes things start to brighten up and we started to enjoy the night le. we went to eat at BK after which we went to buy those sticks which u break it and it start to glow in colour. hahaha..it was qutie fun lar. we decided to go to pasir ris park since it was still early and my friends had not reach downtown yet. jus as we were about to reach pasir ris park, yande called me. Zzz..sigh had to turn back and meet up with them lor. to my surprise, hongyu was'nt with my friends. then kipmun, jerald, yeanmeng and yande all said that he went to orchard with gals. =.= """ i don't know whether is it true lar but i still believe what they have said. lol~ we enter D`marquee and there is a live rock band performance. the performance was quite boring lar...maybe because i don't really like the rock music. coz got all the drum and electric guitar making my eardrum uncomfortable. finally..after around 1hr bah? fan fan, a singer, from taiwan performed. in my opinion, her performance was rather better than the rock band. after her performance, the clock starts to strike 12 and we begin countdown. everyone stood uup and was dancing around. so cool! hahaha!!! 5 4 3 2 1... and it's 2007 !!! hahaha~

after a while..we went out. and pple guess what i saw? i saw 4 bangala dancing happily outside the D`Marquee. it's dam dam dam funny lar! hahahahaha..and this spurs me to take a short video clip of their wonderful moments. hahaahahaha!

our stomach going empty le so we decided to walk to a 24 hrs shop to makan ! yeah~ done with my eating, i found out that i got trouble gg home liao. i left with $2.70. no more bus service le..except the night rider which cost $3. i was thinking what to do ar. at the same time i am also very messed up. caught in the middle. did'nt know whether to send my gf home or go home straight. hai..then my mum called and ask me go home early. then i sian liao..wanted to take cab pei her home and then go home. but i simply can't afford it. after much discussion, dear's mum told her to take cab home and she pay the cab fare. so heng lor..can go home at last. but i still could'nt send her home. hai..when i looked at her facial expression, she was kind of disappointed. her mood jus totally changed. before that, she kept asking me to ask my mum whether i can ton with my friends at kipmun hse. all my friends did the same thing. but i don't wanna ask coz i know the answer is a straight NO. however, my friends keep telling me that if i tried i get a 50-50 chance of success. but i know my mum too well. what's more she is alone at home. i don't wanna leave her alone at home jus like that with no one to tok to. they may disagree with it and say i am a guai kia or what. but i don't think so. they did not understand how my mum felt. i know how she felt becausee i am her son. my dad passed away and she is all alone. she is left with jus 3 children and no one else. none of u had this experience before lar.

hmm..hope my friends will understand bah. end here le. happy new year peeps!

2006-12-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

hey yeah! i am back once again... came online nothing to do leh. so decided to update my blog. hahaa..well, todae was quite busy at work bah. need to tag a lot of price tags. dam peng sia..see so many numbers now my head full of numbers. after my work i went to dear's house to visit her, saw her and i was very sad. don't know why..must be because she was alone the whole day at home. so heartbreaking bah..how i wish i could pei her but i have to work. hai...dear, so sorry.

by the way..1224 is jus round the corner!!!! yeah!!! means we are going steady for 2 years le. hehe..so glad. hope we can brave through any obstacles ahead of us together and lastt long and ever. hmm..mus start to plan the activity for 24 le..hehe..mus make sure it is romantic. =p

can anyone help me out?

2006-12-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

hmm..hi my old blog..long long time nvr see..hahaha. i guess i disappeared from bloggin liao. hahaha..it's being such a long time since i last blogged. anyway, i got nothing to do lar..so came to blog.

well, very soon me and dear gg 2 years le. 2 years to me is rather long..but i don't know wat the people out there think? so right now..i hope that after that 2 years anniversary our love will contiune to blossom... yeah~ of course i want it to happen. =)

life nowadays was rather tiring bah. working weekdays 9-6...stand the whole day and tag the price tag.hahaha..and the salary isn't much. so sad..but wat to do leh? going for first 3 mths in jc liao. *Bored* hai..toking about jc, i still very lost bah. i don't feel like going jc and yet my mum keep forcing me to go for the first 3 mths. i don't see a point in gg there for the first 3 mths because i don't even intend to enter jc? i am so afraid that my decision will change after enterin the jc. hai..wonder what will happen between me and dear? lol...thinking too much =X by the way the jc i am enterin is none other than ...................... tampines jc =.=''' hai..sux ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway..i also don't know when can i get my pay ar..sian keat hui tuar me! say can raise pay..don't know got anot. zzzz...i still nd to pay half of my phone bill and buy presents. oh man, i am broke! haahahaha...anyway i am still thinkin of wat to buy for my dear princess ar! hahaha..

another thing in my mind is my basketball. tryin to get back to my form.really hope i can get back my stamina that is the most important thing liao others i can slowly catch up but not my stamina. i cannot afford to lose all of it as i am now trainin at my bro's club. all adult need to run alot. somemore my physical size...need to improve a lot liao. had being carrying weighs recently..hope it can help me bah. haha...

ruicheng jiayou!

lastly, dear i love you.

2006-07-25T22:12:00.000+08:00

hi i'm back again. hai, i don't know how to start with. my mind is very stressed up. i'm just simply lost and i don't know what to do. i am so frustrated over the DSA to TJC. i wanted not to go enter there by DSA. coz i am not used to the training sessions and i am afraid of being alone as most of my friends- i'm nt sure where are going and most importantly, i may not get into the same sch as xiao. that troubles me a lot. i always hope we can get into the same sch even after secondary. but i'm afraid we can't anymore. i wanted to give up this chance but i jus keep thinking and i think that this is the only jc which can take me to uni. hai, but thee thing is i can't get to see her as often. it's just too hard. some may say that i'm crazy and we should'nt let such a thing to affect our future. but i kept thinkin in my mind. how will my life in Jc be like without her? all i can think of is nothing - empty. though pple say that TJC is a good sch which i also know but can i concentrate there..? thinkin above the issues i mentioned above. my heart went sour. the problem is should i follow my heart or my brain.

if i follow my heart, i would'nt get into TJC. i may get into other jc. and the choices of mine are only Meridian and Tampines. however, i heard that the retain rate in meridian is very high and the study environment is very stressful. i am not sure whether i can take it but what matter most is can they take me to the uni? furthermore, tampines jc which i have heard from some of the teachers and students. it isn't a very good college. in my opinion, i also have the same thought however it is near my house. thus, it is very convenient.

anyway, back to my troubles. many teachers will think that i am wasting a very good oppotunity. but i feel that so what if i enter the sch and i cannot concentrate? would'nt it be better if i can go somewhere i enjoy more and i can study better? hai.. in addition, if i did'nt g for the DSA, i will be wasting my teacher's effort in recommending me there.

what should i do? am i going to TJC for my own sake or for my teachers? i am still pondering over this question and it has really affect me a lot. i am unable to concentrate since the DSA.

right now, i can sense that my heart is really unwilling to go. HOWEVER, my brain jus can't stop thinkin of the chance of studying in such a good college and having a higher chance of enterin the uni. why? why? why? Why am i stressing myself with this.. can someone give me a comment on what should i do? i'm really lost. should i let my feeling overcome my brain. hai..i really don't know. somebody pls save me.

2006-06-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

........24/06/06 saturday.........

todae is a very meaningful day. let's kick start with the trip to takashimaya. well, my bro gave me $20 voucher. wahahah..so i decided to spend it on some clothings? me and dear walk for very long around the taka department stores. from 1st browse till 4th. nothing caught my attention. so sad. even if there is, it is still way off my budget. for example one billabong tee. rather cool but it coz $60. -.- actually, i also wanted to buy the pencil box. those kind of XL size which is quite trendy nowadays. but i don't find it worth it. so out it go. hahaha, after that i decided to buy some soft toy to put on my bag? hahaha...wanted to buy one for dear also. but she keep insisting she does'nt and i wonder is it true. but in the end, i did'nt bot any.! LOl..so lame..walk so long and never buy anything -.- then, we went to mac to eat pepper drumlet meal! wahahahaha..was quite ok bah. not to forget this is my first time eating this meal. coz previously it was too expensive. i can't afford. only manage to afford todae as my mum struck lottery recently!! and she gave me $30 as tips? seriously i also don't know. pamper me? quite true. LOL

after the mac meal, went to f-woman and dear was fascinated by the bikini they had in store. lol..but unfortunately it was too expensive. neither one of us could afford. =X maybe next timee, dear..then we make our way to mrt. and we are going to BUGIS!

arrive at bugis. walk at parco bugis junction and came across this new store near food junction. an ice-cream store actually. and there's a crowd around it. curious, i decided to take a look. hmm, nothing much surprising. coz it's an ice-creams shop. quite worth to try. wanted to try too but i think dear does'nt wan to? maybe coz ICE-CREAM IS FATTENING! did i spell correctly? pardon me for my poor english. haha, my eng in report bk is underline de. =) but don't despair me. coz i'm working hard to push for a better grade. let's contiune on this wonderful journey. finish lookin at the ice-cream shop we started walking around. dear wanted to buy a tube. but none of them fit her taste. hahaha..actually the tube also was'nt nice lar. =x next, she went to surf rider? to look at the bikini. nearly bot a set of bikini coz it was really drop cheap! jus $36.90. but we are too naive bah. coz the salesgal came and told us that this set of bikini is sold seperately. -.- a moment of excitement nia. we walk out and i went to MCP[my changing place] and browse at the blazers...wanted to get one. HEHE but doubt it would be soon. maybe later part of the year. hahaha..then we walk around at edge. nothing much happen then bah. jus that we keep lookin around and dear was trying on clothings. sadly, did'nt manage to purchase any.

well, it was rather late and we make our way to bedok. to send dear home. while waiting for bus..dear called home and her sis wants her to buy take-away. hahaha..went to the coffeeshop at the interchange and we waited almost half an hour for that hokkien mee. so long..but while waiting we ate ice kachang. hahahaha..finally we got our hokkien mee and went to take cab. coz i was very tired. about to doze off~ ZzzZzzzzz.. waited very long and there was no cab! tiring me began to vent my frustration le. lol..keep tsk-ing. and dear too was getting impatient. the cab was really gettin on our nerves. as a result we have to take 67 back to dear's hse. and on the bus, we kept rather quiet bah. coz very pissed off. hahaha..then when we alight dear start to ANN-Neh[**for those confuse, it means throw tantrum. akin to kids u guys know?] hahahahahaha..she kept making so much noise and i mus tolerate her kiddy's temper. hahahahah!!! 16 years old le. still behave like 3 years old. aiyo..shame shame ar..~ hahahhaa.

reach dear's hse then i start gulping the hokkien mee. it was simply heavenly. wahahaha!!! after my dinner, watch wc a while and dear's mum was laughing very loud. hahahaha..so hilarious. seriously, her mum was very friendly and cute one. like my dear. stayed a while and i go home lo..!!! reach home..was so exhausting...!!! wanna straightaway buried myself in my cosy bed and into a deep slumber. hibernation! wahahahaa..that will be cool. sleeping for days or weeks. hahaha..around 9+ i took my dinner again!then watch tv..then come online. hahahaha..well, i shall end here le. that's all for my entry. hahaha..

dear, todae is 24 and i am really happy that we are still together. i am looking ahead a better days ahead of us down this wonderful road. but right now, try to put away some of our fun and concentrate on our studies. coz i believe a good grades in 'o' level will make our love life more interesting and carefree. =) dear, i love you and happy 24!!!

2006-06-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

yeah..i'm back. hahahaha for the time being bah? lol..long time never blog liao.wahahahahaha..anw, todae went to kbox with dear. hmm, was very cool..! hahahaha..went to orchard cineleisure kbox. hmm, quite ex anw..total round up about $30. hahahaha..then we sing quite a lot bah. and then dear very blur..go toilet then when she came back, she walk past our room. -.- so blur! lastly, i think this is the last time i going to kbox le bah. need to wait till after 'o's then can visit again. wahahahax..

yeahh..tok about 'o' level very scary sia. don't know how my chi fare. =x by the way, holiday ending and brand new term is about to begin. and that also means 'o' level is getting nearer and nearer. mus jia you liao..! hahahaha..score good grades. =p hmm..end here le bah. cya blog.

2006-06-01T16:00:00.000+08:00

sorry dear. i told u i want to meet u but i did'nt. i'm really sorry. i guess i really hurt u by not going to find u. i know u had a very bad day today. yet i can do nothing about it. coz i'm part of it that causes ur day to be so bad. when i messaged u to mit u after ur oral. i really mean it. i really wanted to see u. but it rains heavily and i was thinking whether to mit u anot. coz i really don't know how to tell my mum. because of this i chose not to go and stay at home. while u are out there in the pouring rain. i wanted to shelter u. wanted to accompany. but i jus could'nt. i'm really very very sorry.

nowadays u are facing so much stress as i am. i know u are unhappy, sad and felt unmotivated. i am always trying my best to help u i hope u can see that. i really want to motivate u to study again. because few months down the road, we are sittting an exam that will decide where we are in the future.

2006-05-13T15:52:00.000+08:00

yox..i'm back blogging. wahahaha.. it's been a very long time since i blogged. lol..very lazy bah and was busying playing my ps2. wakakaka..

anw, todae is sat bah. nth much happen actually coz i was at home. soo hmm.. kind of boring. jus that my dear went for hair cut this morning and in the end her hair was in totally havoc. lol..it did'nt turn out what she wanted. but have to blame the hairdresser for her deafness. -.- feel sad for dear bah. but cheer up k? after a few weeks it will grow longer and it would'nt be so ugly one lar. in fact got so ugly meh? i think still better than CPY. lol...!!!

on thursdae bah..i went to watch MI with dear. wahahah the show was really veyr interesting and was damn freaking cool. the IMF was so cool and also not to forget tom cruise! he was absolutely stunning. wahahaha..but the show somehow got a bit lame lar. a person is going to die and yet they can still kiss and say what i love you. -.- got a bit incredible. lol... but overall the show was perfect. i mus give 10/10. lastly, i admire their technology and the way they plan and organise things. if only the armed force or police force is so effcient i doubt there will be terrorist in this world. wahahahaha.

after the show send dear home coz aiya tm and cs all so sian!!!!! walk till i can memorise the whole building planning. wahahah. then i went out to eat with my bro and mum. bought oreo choco ice blend which is very nice and went home.

think i got nothing to write le bah. l0l..coz i also don'tknow can write one. hai, jus sian that i can't get to see dear bah =(

2006-04-24T17:38:00.000+08:00

woH..long time never come update le. anw, todae is 24!!! that's why i came to update. hahahax..guess no pple come visit my blog one. coz too sian liao. wakaka..but who cares? LOl..

hmm..it's been 1 year 4 months with xiaomantou!! wahahahaha..well, time pass very fast wo..! so fast 1 year 4 months le and also we are going to sit for our mid year le. no time to celebrate or what bah? hahahax..so sorry le. but let's work hard and study for mid year k? get good results then hols can enjoy more le..hahax..also know that dear is now very hardworking seh..jia you jia you and i'm glad to see u are improving a lot le..and ur results are showing. *cheers*

i also know that my dear very ke lian. so many mosquitos bites. then todae mus go see doc.. =( make me so worried coz they say u go home. then thought u stomachache or what..hahax..
anw, called u and u told me u at polyclinic and u sounded fine so alas peace~ hmm..then after sch saw dear..she's looks fine and then on the way to the canteen she tripped! then my heart drop! lol..scary..then she bad mood le lo..and her ENGINE START liao. =x

then 2.30 sat for mock exam paper 1 was ok lo..jus that got problem with time management. hahhax..afterwards go borrow umbrella from miss si then shelter dear to bus stop and she go le.. =( so sad..anw tml is science practical mus jia you le!!!! =p end here le. Happy 24 dearr!!!

2006-04-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

on the com and saw the screen : " samuel and meiyi together." from dear. i was at a loss of words. that kind of bastard also got gf?! unbelievable. he must have a hard time getting one. if pple are reading this, i hope u will give that fellow a round of appalause. anyway, i doubt it will last long. by looking at the ways he treated girls, my instution told me that it would'nt last long. not that i'm tryin to show off that i have a long-term relatioship but it's just a fact which no ones can deny. he can simply stinks her gf off. i also seriously doubt her gf know of his BO! LOL..

anyway enough of that perturbing fact. let's tok about my sports heats todae. =) came in first for both my 100 and 200. was rather shagged after my sprint. but have no chance but to carry on for my 200m. hardly get any sufficient rest. my legs were feeling weak and wobbly -fatigue and nerous. everyone says that farliq is very fast can beat me. so was nerous naturally wad. got competitor somemore mr Jain put high hopes on me. lol. anyway, makin my way there, i wanted to quit but on the second thought i jus give it a try. off went the blast and was behind at 4th. wanted to start sprintin at 100m but find that it's too late so better 'turbo' at 110m. lol..then i started to overtake and yeah, i'm first!!! weEeee..but there's a prrice to pay for it. after my events, i was totally shut off. very very tired!!! all my energy use up. was faintin and i also vomitted in the toilet. then dear came and find me, lol, like first time see me so seng. lol..but after some rest, was much better and went to make my lens. afterwards went to eastpoint to accompany dear buy stationery and pimple cream. after that took bus home. was so shagged~

forget to add that, i had a HARD time putting on my lens.after wearin it was quite weird bah. and my eyes are so small. o.o LOL~ tml wearing lens to sch. mus wake up early to wear liao. if not confirm late for sch. rofl`

end here bah.

2006-03-29T16:58:00.000+08:00

hai..was quite sad todae bah. it was still ok before recess but after sch i jus felt very sad.

dear got kp by that basturb again. hai..was so fed up with that son of a bitch. but i don't know what to do with him. feel like bashin him up but can't do that. hai, it will just get me into more trouble. wanted to help dear but could'nt know what to do. always see her kenna bully by those two assholes in her class was indeed very heart-shattering. i tried to console her..but it did'nt help i guess. in the ened, she cried. hai, to see u cry was really frustrating to me. i just felt i did'nt do what i should do. jus t very very pissed off with myself and those two asssholes. i wonder why are there such guys on earth. they are jus total disgrace. not gentleman at all...!! terribly upset for their parents for having such a problematic kid. they jus don't have any brains to even think of what they are doing. utterly disgusted! puke..wake up u kids. one is stay back for 1 year and another one trouble maker. wake up ur bloody idea man. be a man, don't abuse girls. u pple are bitch..!

dear u got to tolerate a while. if they really disturb try to tell the teachers or what. in the future, we shall see those basturbs failing in their lives and leading a begger's life. i shall see how they beg at the roadside for food for money. they will never get any sincere relationship for they are born with a fucked up attitude. any gals who fond of them mus be one too. as it goes: it takes a basturb to know another basturb.

but in fact, they are worse than a basturb. they are incomparable to animals. they are jus some screwed up and brainless freak puttin human in disgrace.

so jus cheer up. and take care.hai, jus received msg that u get scalded. hai, why so careless..? i'm sorry i can't pei u or what. but really take care? remember u are tofu. everytime accidentally see u kenna hurt, very sad lo. so mus take care k? reach home le rinse with cold water and apply cream bah.

2006-03-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

tml dear's concert le leh!!!hahaha..work so hard finally u are here le bah. tml mus jia you k?hahax..don't worry that u will screwed up. think of how many pple told u that ur solo was nice? try to calm down everything will be fine one. MUST HAVE CONFIDENT. once u pick up ur confident everything will be steady le. yeah, u may screw yesterday but don't go and think bout it, it will only make u more scare. tml is the last performance with ur fellow band members bah if i'm not wrong? so all the more u should cherish this chance and also show what kind of flutist? u are ok? furthermore, this year is ur last year. give it ur best shot if not u may nt have the chance to perform in such a fine stage again wor? don't cursing u or what lar but jus that the chance will be slim bah? unless got alumin lo?hahaha..

most importantly, tml i will try my best to reach there on time k? tml i may nt be free to calm u down or what bah, well, i'm very sorry bout it. but i will support u with all my heart k, laopo? tml jia you jia you!!!don't think too much jus think of one thing - u are going perform well tml k? ur solo shall be the best of the best! but also don't forget about the whole band piece wor.? mus also focus k? jus stay focus and concentrate even if u lose beat or what don't worry, continue to focus on ur piece.

BE optmistic. I believe in u that u can do a good job. don't disappoint me wor.! BElieve in urself is still the most important thing u should do =)

all the best!

2006-03-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

hai, backbone is gettin from bad to worse. when to see doc also no use. keep aching, also don't know how to stop this pain. so many things troubling me nowadays. so fucked up. why does'nt the pain go away. is it because i drink cold water? but i also seldom drink liao. if this goes on, sooner or later i would'nt be able to play bball anymore.

it's not that i don't wanna go out with u, guys. i jus wanna be with my gf can't meh? it's nt that i scare of her or what lor. she jus don't have much friends like me and always alone. of course, i got time should spend more with her wad. she's a gal, of course i will have to care for her safety rite and at least tell her my whereabout then she no nd so worry mah. tml friends asking me whether wanna go www, hai, i don't even know how to answer them.

just received sms from vijay and was told i get 17 for eng. hai, that's it man, the end of me. no matter how well i do for other subs, it's still worthless. no matter how many As i get there's still a e8. hai, fuck up man.

everything is screwed up. wazz wrong with todae? i jus don't get it. it totally suck to the core

2006-03-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

hai..fuck lar. fail eng. ccb. piss off

2006-02-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

tml against temasek sec. wonder if i could play the way i should. let's hope so...

2006-01-13T22:18:00.000+08:00

tournament is about to begin. if i'm not wrong it should be next week. well, basically we train this afternoon and i was satisfied with what our team is doing currently. coach says we are underestimating pple. well, it maybe true for some of us. but i was'nt sure for myself. i jus feel jaded with our performance today and i am shocked too that i did'nt perform up to expectation. perhaps, more than expectation.

Broadrick, Bedok North, Ngee Ann and Coral. They may be strong but we must'nt be fear. We came all the way here. And my final destination throughout my secondary school life. in the past, sec 1 we lost badly. sec 2 we train doubly hard but it went down the drain-the pain was unforgettable. everyone was upset with the outcome. i can say i shed tears. sec 3 - first year in B division. i was noob and we lost out. sec 4 - unknown. one of my teammates feel that we may lose out too in this year. but deep in my heart, i don't wish it to happen. i put in so much effort for 4 years. first 3 years i may take it as a blunder, my inexperienced. however, ever since the trip to taiwan indeed was a great help to me. i become faster, wiser and most importantly, scoring. i am a striker of the team like what my coach told me. i am in the team - to score, to defend the team, the lead. every match we played is crucial. we have to win. we play to win and never to lose. i want to put every chances i had in. i wanna score. i wan to lead the team to what they are capable of. guys, play ur whole heart out. this is my last year i don't wish for anymore disappointment. i know you people can do it. no point showing to me. show it to the others. let them know who you are ur capability but nt ur weakness. every match we play we stand a chance. there is no absolute lose. as long as we put in every effort we had, we played there is always a chance for us. like what coach says "winning awaits the prepared mind" we are prepared here some of us are in the final battle. let's give it the best shot and let it be engraved in our heart the glamour moments we spent together for 4 years. Good luck, dunman bballers, let's do this together and win as a team, lose as a team-unity.

2005-12-31T20:37:00.000+08:00

Few more hours and it's new year lo! Hahahax..today is new year eve..? Was so pathetic bah..today whole day stay at home. yAwnx~ actually going to meet dear and jy to eat seoul garden at 615 but my bro wan go out training. sis go clubbin..then fine lor. stay at home accompany my mum. hai, always is me. don't know what the hell they are doing lor. everytime wanna go out mus think of mum being alone at home but yet sis can be so happily going out clubbing spending money on stupid drinks and hanging out with useless friends. i don't know what is she thinking and i doubt she will stop this bad habit. It jus wasting family income. bloody suckerr..

anyway woke up and had my lunch. nothing to do..so went to maple lor..then dear went to buy bag with her best friend. hahaha..think she went to orchard and ps? but end up also never buy dao..lol. As for me, maple maple maple..bought a 10% scroll for overall armour for def but failed. $#^!#^#$^!$#% but aiya 100k. lucky not 150k. hahahaha..train at jr yeti and died once. -.- Hmm, after that go market and sold my zard but shop around then go back train back my 5% again. hahahahax..after that went to buy dinner. i treat my mum chicken wings ^^ hahaha..guai leh. =x

nw also nth to do le lo..dear jus finish her movie. hahaax..me go maple liao..cyaa!

Happy new year~

2005-12-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

Christmas is over and so is my sch holidays! HaHahahax..long time never come update blog liao lo. lol..very lazy updating bah..? haha..anyway also not much pple lookin at my blog. =)

It seems very fast that hols are going to end. And mus get myself prepare for 'o' levels lo. So fast, ya? Hahahax..hope to do well bah. Anyway, went out todae with dear to queensway buy new year clothes. Bought a long sleeve shirt (first time leh!) and one bball shoes? red and white.. wakakaa..after tat shop shop a while then go home lo.

took 197 to bedok. so long..ZzZzzzZz~ send dear home and come home eat fried bee hoon. then watch tv and now..doing nothing.

2005-11-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today was so tiring.. ZzZzzzzZ~ woke up at 9 this morning and went to mit baby darling at sistic at 1030am? hahax..we went to catch harry potter by the way. Lol. was quite interesting bah but was rather long lo. hahaha see till both of us after the show, straight away chiong toilet. hahahaa..

did'nt went to eat lunch and breakfast. wakakaka, coz both of us were quite full.then go her house. LoL! after that went home while dear went to TM eat yoshinoya. chi ji lo. =( so sorry anyway i did'nt pei you. went home change and went for bball training. was sian-ed bah. coach down there kpkb..for being late. so buay song inside me was like $^!$!%&!$@#$!$%$#^ =z then never give us water break. kaox..so fed up. but forget it and my stomach start to growl..HEHE. *hungry* liao. HAha..

mus bear with it till water break meanwhile my stomach pain like siao..Finally, water break..!!! ^^ faster ask yd buy me milo and h-2-o to drink. after drinkin it, felt a bit better le..then go training again. suay suay i sprain my ankle ONCE AGAIN. so stupid!!! then hai die le lor, dear dulan le. =XxX

training ended after i sprain my ankle. was so hungry..!! Thus, i went to eat with my teammates at Mr. Prata. the service was bad man..the food still so-so. i ate like don't know wat. super fast..coz hungry mah. =x went home eat again!!! ^^ then watch tv and come online lo..till nw. hahahax..

Dear, i very guai hor? hahaha..i got massage lo. u sounded so angry. Xia su lin...Hmm, lax lar..i can de. =) *cHeerS*

2005-11-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

WeeE..it's 24.! hahax..yeah 11 month liao hor? hahax..one more month to go yeah? hahahax..

so sad, that we did'nt went out todae for any celebration coz i got training in the morning and dear got band. =( but get to see a while during baby darling's break. RoFl...then ate chicken rice at uncle louis and drank yam ice blend. =p after that walk home. Don't know who hor..ownself call me RUIRUI in the end tell her friend i call myself that lor. WHO AR? YOU XIN ZHI DU MIN LAR HOR? wAhahahahaa

went home..wanna install maple but still can't dl lo.Sian ji bua.. =( then go slp..i was sleepin till so shuang..then suddenly my phone rang..thought who..tmd, national captain. sian ji bua..tonite got match..sian diao lor. i jus came back was about to have a good rest and u haunt me back by this..?really taken aback..i was very very tired and i decided nt to go..and also because of my ankle.i really nd a rest..haix. after the phone call had some hard time going back to bed toss here and there and think of my baby darling. wahahaax..then i slept peacefully. ^^ till my alarm rang..wake up..and msg dear. then watch tv a while. dear reply saying she go home alone. =( sorry i did'nt pei you..

during evening i went to buy prawn crackers to eat HEHE..then eat dinner..watch tv come online..then zuo bo lor..haha.

dear i finish update liao. hahahahaha..i love you =) happy 24 i'm sorry for wat i did jus nw. Forgive me, baby darling. wahahahahax..i lurve you.

he ni zai yi qi shi wo de xing fu.
you shi mei dui ni hao,
wo fei chan yi han.
gei wo shi jian,
rang wo zhen ming,
ni dui wo suo fu chu de duo zhi de.
wo zhen de ai ni.

2005-11-21T14:54:00.000+08:00

I'm really trying my best to forget the past hurts. i told myself that u are completely different from her. And stop thinkin negatively. but i jus can't help it and i don't know why. It was a reflex action..and i can't stop it.

i keep telling myself and repeating that u would'nt do anything that will hurt me. but it seems hard..Hai, trust me i will throw away the past and stop those negative thinking. i guess i jus need some time to adjust to it..Anyway, i did'nt meant to disappoint u last nite. i'm so sorry..hai, i am sure that was my fault =) hmm, don't know wat to say le. jus hope u cheer up k? i will do my best to forget it. that's bitch anyway.

2005-11-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

i know it's hard to stay away from temptation or curiosity. i would'nt blame you..i jus hope that after this experience u learn from it..and think clearly if u really have to do it. i can't always be there to help you guide you..you have to learn for urself...try ur best to be independent. At first i was'nt quite like the idea of u dying hair bah, maybe because i'm over-protective or wat? i also don't know..i jus don't like the idea of it. Maybe bad impression or wat? but after saying all tat and i reflect..i should'nt have stop you maybe? i should instead jus let u do wat u like..but i jus scare the consquences will be horrible bah..i'm sorry.

hai..todae had training. went for a few rounds in the school and had training. it was bad..lost my temper lor..hai, i am damn pissed off with the coach lor. i use the ball I DID'NT WHACK HIS ASS?i jus merely slightly threw at his butts so the ball can bounce back and i can score..IS THAT REALLY PUNISHIN MY TEAMATES BECAUSE OF MY TEMPER? You told us to play dirty tricks and here i am doing one and u scold me? oh freak you.

after the match i shut myself off from my surroundings and played my own game. i was totally on fire after that..i feel like giving whoever come near an elbow. i jus totally went berserk..i played hard and fuck! again and again!! i injured..hai, why is my body full of injuries? have i did something terribly wrong..? pls..i have enough of my injuries..i can't play my peak anymore..i'm devastated enough..give me a chance to shine..

haix.

2005-11-17T16:07:00.000+08:00

hmm..sian ar. my left leg is very pain. each step i took seem so difficult? bth lo..injured from yesterdae fall during match. bloody hell..RI kns one. Ref bias andd the coach is insulting. tmd..me and jianliang score a lot..u throw face no nd insult one rite? come on, sportsman..u loser!

Wake up at 9 todae and sleep back again. very very tired. then wake up at 10..ate my breakfast and once again went back to sch for make-up lesson. went for a-maths was quite confusing mah. but manage to understand. hahax..after a-maths went makan at bbt with beh and hong yu. then uncle sell new drink. and of course my favourite - Yam!!! =)) so nice..!! at least nt so dilute. yeAh! ahahahax..ate seafood and went back sch again for biology lesson. study bout eyes and hormones. then wah concentrate and concentrate. hahahax..then hmm, understand most of it bah. last few lessons keep playing with neilson they all tmd, ownself suffer. lol..

bio ends..and wanted to study at mac or maybe lib..? but dear says study a while nia..then ok lo..nvm then study next time and came online after bathing..hmm, bored le..my hip very pain. tmd, if i have a chance, i will pay back wat they did.

a bleed tongue
a swollen hip.

2005-11-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

National Youth no.10 !!!! ^^ i finally got it!!!! Yeah! Todae went for training in SBC till quite late and had a match with next batch team. Quite hiong bah..they play rough man. hahaha, i play dirty tricks. roFl elbow here and there, hook onto pple's legs. hahahaha..then act innocent no foul. =X HAhahaha..after training already 12 le. then went for briefing for _ don't wan say..sian lo. after that get my jerseys. REd and White. CoOl..though the shoes is gay! hahaha..coz it's purple in colour . got 3 paires of ankle socks. yeaH..=p can save money no nd buy socks liao. HEHE..got 1 polo tee which is of course and definitely RED!!!! ^^ got one white t-shirt too. Too bad lor..no jacket. wahahahaha if there is, shuang liao! hahahaha

after that went to meet dear at ctrl station pei her go eat yoshinoya. lol, then i nothing to do lor..coz eaten le mah. so di di siao siao lor! hahahahaha, make weird sounds and tok craps. hahahaha! till dear bth don't wan eat. sory lo =( wo zhi cuo le. HEHE. after dear's lunch wanna go look around and buy foods to eat. but aiya..walk walk till forget then send dear home. lol, take one big bag and wear one sling big bag. like go overseas jus come back like that. hahahaha..dear stomach ache le..so sorry mus be yesterdae coconut milk le. no nd mus be is confirm one. lol..i'm sorry dear brought u harm. =O hahahahaha..jk jK. she went bian bian and i went home.

Saw a ragged man on the way home. really so don't know how to describe. hahahax..from his apperance like from from kampong like that or should i say more worse than kampong? hmm, if only i got money i will like to offer him help le. lol...don't know why. i saw him only..i feel like offering help to him so much. lol..maybe i'm kind by nature and perhaps hmm..we know each other in the past life? lol..lamerZ. -.-

come home..hao lian my national jersey. aiya..OF COURSE MUS HAO LIAN RITE!!! =x hahahaha..then chat online with dear a while and go [dazhu] liao. hahahhaha..wake up buy diiner then admire dear lor. hai, go eat sirlorn steak, chicken wings and satay. still da pao porridage. hai, xiang fu wor. wo chi ku. =( then watch sing hits awards!!! then come online lor! hahahahaha..

lalalalala...my dear is cute >.< lol. i mad le

2005-10-31T14:54:00.000+08:00

everything sucks big time. so what achieving good results..? i don't see i'm gettin any privileges. FUCK THIS WORLD. FUCK OFF!

2005-10-29T15:09:00.000+08:00

Saturaday..sian lo, wake up early in the morning..then lie on the bed..wondering whether wanna go training. at bukit timah, was very far..so sian half. but can't think of any excuses, so bo bian..go lor. then saw dear mus wake up early in the morning do PT, then mus have lunch so late. hai, ke lian lo..anyway so crazy lar. wake up so earl 5.30am. siao lor.

hmm, yesterdae my day was bad bah soon after dear went for camp. came home for tution..and did'nt go training. anyway, heard from jian liang that the coach is pissed off. well, i jus did'nt go once lor..why never ask about ur favourite HY leh? bloody hell..somemore i also nd to rest for my national. anyway, that's much more important than sch. i think that sch is hopeless already. all don't wanna come training. some think they very sian liao..don't wan come. pls lar, think of me and jian liang lar. 1 wk 4 - 5 trainings. u pple 3 trainings and wanna complain. piece of bullshit.

did'nt really slp well last nite bah..slept around 2am like that. hai, can't get to slp..keep thinkin of dear. =( i can't imagine how will my days be like when i'm in taiwan for 6 days. haiX! I know that dear will suffer a lot also bah. hai, i'm really sorry. how i wish i can be with you. i don't know why. whenever u're home and i'm home, we often say i miss you. but when u are away from home for camp or other things and we did'nt communicate much, i start to feel that "i miss you" carry more than jus it is..by the way, was glad that i'm able to hear ur voice last nite. before the phone call, i was looking through the past photos we took and recalling the times we spent. haix, i really don't wish to go..Hmm, i jus don't know how to describe bah. i don't wish to part with you neither my family..Hope that the 6 days will passed quickly.

By the way, the wonderful thing is, next week i'm getting my national jersey!!! =) hope i can get 10.

2005-10-24T12:47:00.000+08:00

yeah, 10 months le wor, dear..hahaha!!hmm, yesterdae was a fun day mah..? To you, i think defnitely is fun lor. keep playing with my hand..obscene? lol, i spell correctly anot? lol..heck lar! hahaha..i mus have my revenge..!!! LoL...

hMm, ur maid going off le hor..? Mus take this period of time to learn to be independent lo..hahaha, or u wan me replace ur maid for three weeks? haha..but i don't know how to wash clothes, iron..and clean windows leh. =x Mus tc of urself k? Nowadays sick sick..haiyoh, wonder when will u get well..i know u strong very fast can one lar hor..? hahahaha..

well, later having training le..but most of my friends gg to pong tang..hai sian lo. suan le lar...jus go lor..coz after that maybe can bio dear. hehehe!!! see ya!

2005-10-20T20:39:00.000+08:00

hai, bro ar bro..i'm in the same boat as you lor. Hai, so bloody fuck.

I also don't know whose problem, and i can't figure it out how u able to tolerate it lor. To me, it makes me fucked up immediately. i don't know why. i jus totally hates it lor. so cb, yeah, maybe friends..but i jus don't get it lar. really don't get it. not enough slp or wat fuck? i also don't know wat the fuck am i doing..! I phsycho myself, tell myself nothing will happen stop imagining things, but i jus can't do it. Is the past scar taking its effect? No matter what, i think i gonna tolerate, she will be truth to me, she will be...

hAi..

2005-10-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

HMmMm..todae tuesdae! Got back some of my exam scripts. Was'nt badly done bah? I jus perform below my own expectation lor. hai..so saddening..Chinese was sux lor even though i gt 71. then bio.!!! I WAS SO HAPPY!!! hahaha, coz i got to beat my rival!!! WAHAHAHA!!! That big nose!!! =p Yeah! then A-maths ok ok lor..also below expectation..but i expected i will get back this kind of poor results one lar. I NEVER did well in any exams but only tests. contradicting? =x

Hai..bad news is my english failed bah and my emaths paper 1 also. most probably lo..no nd see one. my ass also knows. hahahaha!! My combine humanities also..LoL. but aiya, bo bian leh. My teacher so lousy..the results of course will lousy lor. still wanna kao pei the students say we did study..wth, oweself lousy owed up lar. stupid ass..don't push blame..u are really lousy man! losers! forever loser! still wanna boast so much about urself..ur bdae i buy one mirror for you to reflect urself, actually how UGLY you are and how DISGUSTING you are in this world. living in this world..is jus wasteful, jus get lost. oh, i jus can't stand you. To emphasis on it, whole class in effect hates you. Your teaching is equavilant to teaching nonsense. toking about unrelated stuffs and stubbornly keep saying it is relevant. omg! come on, u better go for some further studies. anyway, ur info are'nt that truth, in fact, it's butch of lies. so lame...so cold =.=

Well, i'm sick anyway. don't know wat happen to me..cough and cough. hmm, contact tubercuolosis? hahaha..hope not. I'll be ruined by it! =O hai..so pathetic, i spend so much time on maple,yet could'nt even play. hai..Sian ar. Maple ar maple, get it started. I wanna train!! I'm sincere can u be touched by it? =(

2005-10-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

WOH...I'M SO HAPPY THAT MY FINAL EXAM HAS ENDED!!!OMG..TIME FLIES REALLY FAST,MAN!It seems like i'm going to take my 'o' level soon le. hahaa..next year. =) yeah..!!well, let's not about it. i can't imagine the results for my finalyear exam..all the papers i took i have no confidence at all. hai, i wonder if the outcome will be good. if only it will be wat i expected from myself..that will be great. wat i really wan is to get a scholarship or merit busary bah..i really hope i can get that lor. hai..Hope i'm blessed.

i'm really really very happy todae to spend my day with my lovely and cute dear dear. HEHE...i'm extremely happy ^^ wahahahaha!!!!went to watch skeleton key..well, did see much skeleton in the key though..haha but really enjoy my dear companion. HAHAx..then the pple in the cinema so kp. -.-''' so sadistic lor. pple break le leh..they applauds and cheer. i knw that person is a villian lar..but no nd so sadist de mah. wah piang..sit sit see see..till backbone pain. tmd..then dear..keep lo soh ar..hahaha..but i love it. hahahax..

before that we went to shop shop..haha..went to ripcurl and roxy..look my dream wallet..try some caps. hahahax..wanna buy sia..wan buy one!!!so cool..hahaha..very shuang jiu dui le. =x coz long time never wear cap got a bit sua ku. wanna keep up with trend..hahahax..went to nike shop. this is the most funniest one. lol..go around the shop hunting over 10. -.- so mad over it lor..then the salesperson thot i crazy..saw 10 then i WAH!!!!SAW ANOTHER ONE...WAH!!!!!SAW ANOTHER ONE..WAH PIANG!!!! =X but i really wan those 10 shirt. they are my everthing..haha (include my dear too) got 2 no.10 pants and 5 no.10 t-shirt i guess. i wan the orange colour one. si bei chio!!!and i also wan the no.10 pants.!!!! arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after the movie..went home le lor..hehe. dear, sorry lar..never give u goodbye kiss. me don't dare..like not nice in public leh. hehee..somemore so many pple..i scare scare..so sorry..i owe u one k? hehe..one big big one. =x love yA! hmm..wonder if there is any jobs available for me...hahax..

2005-09-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

Stress, pressure hai..exam is round the corner and i'm feeling the tension right now. dear ar dear, i'm so sorry i seldom have the time to accompany you, be with you and brighten ur days. i wish i could do that every single day but i can't. absolutely sorry. but i will try my best to accompany u after the final year. i don't knw hw u feel bah, i'm jus afraid that u think u're neglected. but rest assured, u're neglected by me. i miss you too. not sometimes, but everytime...Cheer up and jia you for ur studies. Hope u soar high this time..i believe in you. no matter wat, don't worry then we are driftin away or watsoever, coz my heart is always within you and he is planning for a long long everlastin journey trip? Hehe..well, wat i wanna say is..

I love u.

2005-09-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

wOo..my blog rox eh? hahaha..thx lot ar dear. lol!!! do till so cheeky! wakaka...anyway, sorry ar dear..never pei u much bah.hahaha so sorry..

woke up in the morning..for tution..after that watch ge dou tian wang!!! omg..damn interesting..very inspiring and touchin seh..!!! cannot stand...afterwards went to uncle house at 805 i guess. coz my nephew erm, wat they call is man yua..means first month lar. lol..the hair damn cork-up. very funny one like punkster. rofl..no nd wax nor gel straight away spike up. best is..go there watch ge dou tian wang!!!cousin of my same age go buy..then wah..faster watch..haha!!! watch and eat watch and eat. lol..so cool. then play with kids. those less than 5 years old, all gals. hahaha.then very fun bah..got to bao one. hahaha..then cute cute one..haha, then her parents and others say..this gal only one shuai ge to bao nia. hahaha..bth. stay there till 5 like that then went home and slp. wah!finally go to take afternoon nap. long time never get to liao.

wake up..faster study study and do homework..hahax..tml mondae lo! back to sch again. =) 1 more week to EOY. Jia you. I WAN SCHLORSHIP!!!!500 BUCKS I'M COMING.!!! JIA YOU, WU RUICHENG!!! =x dear, u too =) ur amaths is doing great, keep it up!!!

2005-09-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

woH..!!!so long never update blog liao.wakakaka..well, have been studyin recently and busy with my trainings. anyway ending tml. FINALLY!!!i got a break -.- was so exhausting lo..esp. this week. have to rush here and there and had my both eng and chi orals. frightening experience. hahax. i think i wil fare badly for my eng oral lor..lol..who ask me go piss the teacher off >.< i did
'nt did it deliberately mah. hahahax.

hmm..todae was rather tiring bah. maybe i shuold named it the "Maths Day" hahax..after sch, went for a 6 hrs maths marathon. firstly was amaths make-up lesson from 1.30 till 3. ms nawal teach us trigo identites. was quite confusing at the beginning but get to do it smoothly le..haha..come home did the ws and every questions i did and found the answer. but wonder if the answers were correct?hahaha..

dear ar dear..i'm very glad u are studying very hard nowadays to do well in ur end of year. i wish u all the best k? Hehe..well, mus jia you jia you. if don't understand, don't hestitate to ask..And don't be dulan if u can't do some qns. try to calm down and think clear..relax relax..and reflect in ur mind wat ur teachers taught you. =) i don't wanna see u so gloomy le coz it will also affect me. how u feel, is the same for me. u're happy so am i..And remember wor, u're nt stupid at all k? mus have confidence and believe in urself. if u don't believe in urself how are you going to excel in this upcoming EOY? well, it may nt easy but more practices may help you i guess? Practices make perfect. Jia you jia you!!! and try nt to focus too much on a particular subs. try to read up others too. last reminder - study smart but at the same time study hard too. i hope to see u smile when u get back ur results => and is a broad one. don't care whether she wins u anot..wat most important is to beat urself.

Well, tml will be 24th le! Hahahax..very happy that we are still together. very meomorable. 9 mths liao leh..hehe. thank you so much for been there when i need you so badly and also to tolerate my petty attitude? hahax..thx a lot. u really make my life wonderful. I love you.

2005-09-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

woh..when was the last time did i last update my blog..? hahahax..seem a long time. but it would'nt be long compare to a nite without chattin on the phone with u...

it may be jus a few hours to the next dae..but it seems like a few days to me. always chat at nite late late..during the december holidays last year. hahax..come to think of it. it was such a sweet memories. don't know why leh..todae never chat with u. feel so ji mo? hahax..no lar..I'm not blaming you or watsoeva..jus wanna type out wat i feel coz i nothing to do and going to slp anyway..quite late le. hmm..dear ar dear..wo xiang ni! hahahax!!! i'm going mad over u. xiao xin! =S

really hope u are sleeping sound and not because of ur tummy. hope so. =) sweet dreams..i love you, ma cute little princess darling.

2005-08-31T17:01:00.000+08:00

"is it my fault or ur fault?"

whose fault is it? Am i expecting too much or what..?

...i don't know...

lost in the midst of all actions

2005-08-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

Wah..long time never update my blog.hahahax..!!! hmm, guess also no one reading it bah? hahax..had been mapling and studying for my upcoming common test.. ^.^

mus really study hard le..hai, my english is dropping tremendously..better find some ways to push it and right nw maybe exercises may help a bit..? although it seems late, but better than doing nothing and see it dropping? other subs are also deteriorating liao. hai..wtf am i doing? only 1 word to describe. Complacent. hai..mus get rid of this poor attitude and focus, work hard and score for my common test!!! WO YAO NI YI! I WANNA BE NO.1!!! JIA YOU!!!

as for dear leh..don't be disheartened k? well, everytime mr sum told me to teach u amaths. remind me repeatedly. but i don't really see the need to do so. u know why? i know u know everything already. every single things except for some minor things like the way to see things? yup..actually u almost know everything and jus need so touch up. * i know i said it many many times* HEHE.. well, i knw exercises help..but try to control lor..if u think u stable with it..then ok leave it..get a break k? doing too much maths can make u go mad de..trust me. i knw u dislike losing to THAt particular gal. i know inside it feels very fuck..! i know how it feels coz i felt that before. well, put tat aside. whack her in common test.

jia you jia you..cannot because u lose to her this sub..u focus so much on this sub and neglect the rest mah right? so others also mus study well well..win almost every sub. the feeling more song..=x

i guess if u read this.u should had enough of my nag bah. hahahax..ok ok i stop le wor.. jia you k? have fun together after common test! muacckX love you!

2005-08-14T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm..todae seems a rather bad day? during nite time. hai..i don't knw wazz wrong with my sis. in my mind were question marks everywhere and don't seemed quite understand wazz is happening.

can't it be something simple and sweet but why does it always turn to be complicated and torturing? bOoO..it sux - hope everything is going on smoothly with her.

2005-08-05T14:29:00.000+08:00

i guess wat i said really hurts u..? make u feel stupid. i'm sorry..but my words don't really mean that. i was jus shocked that u get such a mark. i thought u knew everything and i knew u can do it..but i don't knw wat happen.

u say it's calculation..well i guess u need to jia you k? losing marks at calculation is certainly not worth it. i know u knw every single things except for the chap 5 graphs. lax cool down..next time don't keep rushing through. don't because of that dumb teacher change ur seating while u are innocent and u anyhow do it. put it aside..why not settle it only after ur test..? haix..i really don't know..i guess i'm very very worried over ur studies bah. i really really hope u can do well..push all ur grades to Bs and As. u have the ability to do that..u really have..u ought to believe in urself. you know everything but u jus need some touch up. i know u did quite well in some of the tests recently..and i'm very glad for you. u need to jia you in ur upcomin common test k? i'm not tryin to stress u or wat. i only really wish for u to do well in ur studies. this way, u will be more happy and i will be happy isn'it?

however, wat i say..is up to you. my advices would'nt do any help. right now, u don't have to win anyone..but to win urself first. only then will u do excel in ur class. Jiayou dear..i'm sorry

2005-08-04T17:59:00.000+08:00

woh..it's been a long time since i update my blog..? yeah..busy playing maple. hahahax..well, always update blog becoz i'm very unhappy..guess this is the motive i wrote again?

i don't knw what went wrong recently..and my academic results are falling..my chem, ss and chi. haix..i knw how to do it or i simply don't? maybe i'm jus tryin to act smart. feelin extremely upset over my results. right now i'm questionin myself..am i playin too much and nt concentrating? What went wrong? dating too much neglectin studies? I don't knw. the doubt cause me to keep quiet for almost all the recess..thinkin over and over again. Why did'nt i get it right? I studied..maybe nt hard enough? nor smart? There's seems no answer to my doubt.

Why? Why? Why? my way of life seems to came to halt. i was going smoothly during my first semt..but wat happen to my attitude towards my second semt? I wanna top the class..i wanna take the scholarship..my MAIN target this year. But everything seems so far away. i'm gettin further each day. My confidence is deteriorating at the same time. Gradually, i start to lost interest in studies.

Pls..I wan back my confidence. I wan back everything i had last semt. I really need it..for me to push on. I don't wanna disappoint my mum, my family and anyone concern. Nowadays, things are so complicated to me. my mind swirling... i'm simply very TROUBLED. studies..basketball..everythinig. the coach is jus practisin favouritism to the chinese and neglect bout us. i totally see no quality in those chinese. why mus u always use the export? we are singaporeans and u should use us to deliver NOT THE CHINESE! they are freakin slack and yet u don't even knw a single shit. together with my friends..we had sweat blood through 2 years of C boys training..instead of gellin us..u split us apart by puttin in a chinese freak. hai..i don't understand.

common test is coming. i really have to score..i need to show my mum waat i can do and wat i promise her to do. hai..lastly, dear..sorry. i don't knw why i have to say it. but i feel i really owe u one.

rocky life-

2005-07-29T15:02:00.000+08:00

lyrics of the song playin, is definitely wat i really wish and want.

2005-07-29T14:32:00.000+08:00

my com is back!!! huRRay!!!! HEhe..it's been a long long time sinc i update my blog, coz my com is out of service for weeks. sad case lo. hahahax..fortunately i got my ps2 to pei me through the 'tough' periods. hahaha!

anyway, todae was racial harmony dae. got bazaar and also the morning programme. it's damn freaky boring lor and make my knee suffer. keep giving me probs since the assembly. bloody hell. but was happy lar..manage to sit beside dear. hahahax..the assembly jus make pple slp nia. those president concil thing. aiya..lame lor. my class go vote for jasmine tai. wah piang..!

during the bazaar, went to 3E class to play ps2. hahaax. challenge mk Winning Eleven 8.! hahahax..then kan him using Inter-Milan. =p Yeah!! hahaha..after that went to walk walk around with dear. she seems so weird. quiet quiet one..walk and walk and walk. so boring.. =.= buy things to eat after that went to my class's and bought the tiny shirts. make one [[ <3 xiao ]] hahaha.don't knw whether she like it anot mah..? (even though dear told me she like it) went to 3E again. watch pple play Winning Eleven...then bargain price with shijia and mrs koh? finally bargainin my way out..hahahax. then dear was watchin the Soul Calibar till so engross in it. tsk tsk tsk..pang seh me. hahaha..jK jK after the bazaar wait for mr tan for half an hour. wth...then jianliang go use the loudspeaker and call for him. hahaax..damn zai! update the pupil development handbook and went off to have lunch.

finish lunch and here i am writing my blog at home. hai, sux lor. hmm, me was very temperemental i guess..? attitude dear last nite..sorry ar. i'm really very pissed le. my mind is nw facing the dark side of life all of a sudden. seems like the world is collasping. i going back to my old self. getting green for jus some words spoken from my own friends. hai..what am i doing this to make myself suffer? i don't get it well, maybe she's too precious to be lost. always having thoughts that things will happen and i'll be left alone once again. i guess this is the bitter among the sweetness of love. Can this be stop?

2005-07-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm..wake up quite late todae bah..? hahaax..about 12+ like that. hahahax..wake up see the hp then saw dear msg. lol..said her band end le. then wah..so early..reply liao..go back to slp again. hahahaha..wake up again.wanted to go uncle louis and have lunch with her.but mum bought for me liao..so dear went to eat with her friend.

after having lunch, she came my hse and do maths. hahaha..my dear pro leh. her graph is excellent and make me dumb-folded. hahaha..someone has finally start to kai qiao le!Lol..keep up wor. u are doing great and don't give up half way. my advice to you is that..IF got any test u did'nt really do well, don't feel discouraged. and don't give up the way u are studying rite now, it's very very important. maybe there's only some small mistakes that cause it..so jus polish up can liao. anyway, was arguin here and there. lol..over the graph's scale. bth lor..everytime everytime will disturb each other one. lol..then end up playin around like small kids. hahaha!!! but that's cute isn't it? lol..!!! then wanted to watch Initial D initially but dear going out with friend later...so sian lo. go buy some stuff and pei dear wait for cab.

came home..was so so bored. but luckily got ps2 to pei me. play and play and play till nite then watch tv. lol..variety show? hmm..damn damn freakin funny. one part they play game..can see girls steppin on guys' dick and sitting ON TOP OF IT. OMG. can u imagine that? hahax..after the show..play ps2 again. till nw. hahahahax..todae was so boring. *yawnz*

2005-06-30T22:01:00.000+08:00

hai..i don't even knw how the hell should i begin. it all started with this sickening com. spend the whole afternoon to reformat. but found out the norton was'nt working. and i kept installin installing and it does'nt work out. ok fine..and it says i could'nt locate one of the files. and was getting tensed up as i search high and low in the com. still could'nt find it. and had to hurry like a race against time to help bro as he gonna finish up his project. i try my very best to find it..i found ways to it..but was fucking hell annoyed by the disturbance from my bro and his gf. i was so fed up..i could'nt concentrate at all. was complaining to dear and she kept telling me to lax lax..*splash* me do it slowly. but i jus could'nt do it. they are far too much. i tryin my best to help my brother and he is down there having fun and would'nt even bother to help me at all!!

in the end..i went pass my limit. blast to dear. and even caplock. it was damn fuckin rude to that to a girl more worse ur gf. =.= but i was really really very furious. boiling. i can't stand it anymore. in the room, it's the same wat i said previously. and outside the living room. mum and sis naggin me to do my work. feelin so stress up. and i msg dear so much like a basturb. hai..a screw jus went loose in my head. i did'nt mean to do it..but it maybe a moment of anguish. i was feeling so fucked up and went back to my room. starred at my work. totally no more mood to do it. my mind was filled with 3 words " I'm a basturb" she's my gf..one i should cherish loads and yet i treat her like a fa xie tong. wth..am i doing? hai..regret so much after that. lie on the bed and kept thinking of my foolish act. it was really really dumb of me. i had never thought of the outcome and scold whenever i wan.

hai............................................................till now i havent even finish up my work and it had to be handed up by tml. no use too late. leave it tml and see how. dear..i'm very very very sorry. really regret wat i did jus now. guess i was really too much jus now. even make u angry. was lucky that u did'nt ji chou and u are a forgiving person. *aHem* anyway, really sorry. although it has already passed but it was my fault. hai..i was lucky this time. but wat if next time i make u angry again..it seems like a million sorry would'nt be any help..

2005-06-28T21:11:00.000+08:00

hmm..todae second dae of sch liao. life in schooling still was'nt bad bah i guess. but was damn freaking boring lor. hahahax..

came to sch..went to postbox to post letters and saw 29 passed. hahahax..faster bio bio got dear anot. she was there indeed..! wooh..!!!! hahahax..went to cross the road as quickly as possible fo catch up with her. hehehe. fortunately, she waited for me outside the side gate. hahaax..went to sch together. put our bags and fool around at water-cooler. =x childish! lol..! after that do homework in class..and was surprise that dear dare to come in sia!!! hahahaha..!!! like first time so willing to come in like that. hahaha..!! tok some craps..and she left. hmm, sian lo..start of the day mus see cheng's face. =.= everything was going well bah. except when chi teacher say mus see in triples..i see kenneth..straight away my mind was like " wtf! no way will i sit with him!" faster go ask jasmin and eunice ask ask can sit with them bo. hahaha..!!! they on then PHEW =.=''' but in the end the seating arrangement change and i remain the same at the front. phew.. =.='''

nothing special happen in sch bah. was very boring very very i mus said. i was like totally anti-social. hahaha..!!! can't believe sia. i hardly spoke more than20 sentences during lesson time. hahaha..!!! cool seh..absoulute guai kia. hahha! a-maths was very blur at the start coz cher start new topic..i gong gong. but manage to wake up after that. then chiong chiong fortunately it was quite easy and manage to understand.

after sch..went to uncle louis makan with dear..pei her to bus-stop. then.. HOME SWEET HOME!study a while and went to sleep like a JU ZHU HOR! =x at nite..was shocked that dear was freaking fuck ta lucky! hahahaha!!! don't wanna elaborate later she kenna robbed. ooops! see ya

2005-06-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

Woh..so fast and it was the start of sch. hmm..first day of sch was rather boring..very boring. but bio really interest me lots. hahahax.

wake up early early..call deardear as usual. i was startled to hear an enthu voice..! hahaha..hello till so cheerful. HEHE..then i happy happy go back to slp. =x wake up again..gong gong tai tai. forget all my preparation before going to sch. lol..messed up. then 7 like that leave sch. schooling as usual lor..timetable change nia. then my side all join tables..pair up.i alone. sian..but also good lar..mus concentrate..i need to score in the final year!!! I wanna have schlorship..do myself proud. =)

after sch..went to uncle louis makan..before that was shootin at bball court. hahahahax. reach le..dear playing with her hp..? lol..then never notice. aiya..sian. then nvm..go order. put down. look back never see me. ok nvm..eat eat half way LOOK BACK..! never saw me again. eat eat finishing. LOOK BACK!!! still never saw me. then aiya.sad. then she bought ice-cream eat eat a while..go liao. then yd and hy and eh down there discuss wanna pong teng mah..then sian..pong teng then i go lor..catch up with dear..=x

aiya..stupid neilson di siao me. ask me maths qn. my mind nw shut down from work liao. i jus now doing work don't wanna ask. i gonna go. hope for a fun day tml. =p byex

2005-06-24T20:55:00.000+08:00

is this wat i expect throughout the day..? am i? am i the one who cause all this. haix..rite nw i only i knw I SUCK..!

a memorial day turn to be my fuck ta dae. firstly, have to go and train in the fuckin hot sun despite the match this morning. ok fine..i go. but i did'nt expect all my good friends to pong teng and pang seh me without telllin me where they going. i'm really tired at that time. really really tired..

train and train..and my shootin is going nowhere and ok..screwed up. after that injured and suffer a bleedin toe. it was fuckin pain and i could hardly do anything. i get some break after that was force to train. what the fuck is this?! hey bloody coach..u bleed so much so wat...i bleedin till my socks also kenna and i could hardly run and u wan me to train. Ok fine! i train..it was freakin pain but i hold on. but in the end humilated. "a good def but poor attacking!" hey fuckin basturb..it's because of my toe or i will have whack them off..!

after training..have to bring fuckin hell boy..to my home to let him see my uni. wazz prob man. i respect u as a attitude teacher and i don't wanna argue with u. fine i bring and i have to meet dear after dat..and i have to go up and down up and down. and also afraid of been scolded. and have to quicken my pace and left dear behind. wtf am i doing..?! and also afraid of this and that. i'm fuckin sissy. oh damn fuck..! rush home after that. i feel so useless. a simple job of accompany a gf to bus-stop or buy foods i can't even accomplished. an upside down basturb am i..? precisely..and end up making her pissed off because of a bitch.

once a bitch always a bitch. i can't believe that a bitch like celine tan ru ping can actually mock at her friend when she was all alone. u think it is fun? u better get some fuckin fick up ur pussy and be fucked off by men and i will be down there laughin at u. why mus u be so bitchy..is it inherit..? can't be. does Jesus teaches u dat..? i doubt. no matter..u will remain IN MY HEART! - as a bitch of the world.

2005-06-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

Woh..everything seems passing very fast. and todae is 24..!! *cheers* which is me and darling mantou..6 months anniversery? HEHE...but the sad thing was i can't go out with dear todae. =( got training at 4. so sorry..!! no matter wad, todae will still be a special dae for you and me and i will never forget this date.

well, 6 months le. all along was very glad to have u to accompany me. u make my life beautiful eh.? HEhe..wanna thank you for everything. wat u did for me words simply can't express. i'm not exageratting, guys. u guys never knw how wonderful it is yeah..? maybe because we get along really very well and share the same thoughts eh..? hahahahax..

really thank you for ur treats at times. so sorry i don't knw hw to say personally to you. coz i shy lar. hehe..but deep in my heart i'm very hmm..happy happy..! yeah..mus admit i am quite useless some little things also need u to treat me. but recently no money le. hehe..but i promise u precious thing is yet to come. eh..hope i can have enough to buy one valuable and memorial item for you wor. i will try my best..hehe.

hmm, don't knw wat to say le. jus wanna thank you lots and lots. everytime go out with me then left ur less out le. hehehe..so pai seh. =) love ya dear. u rocks my world. lastly, don't think too much k..? life goes on..live it to ur fullest and don't regret it. do wat u think u should do. don't be easily influenced wor. and for sch reopening. mus work hard kk..? mus buck up in ur studies..i really hope u can perform well. need help jus call me..don't hestitate. don't always think it is impossible. because impossible is nothing. don't have to win others to see how well u do..wat u should do is to win ur ownself..chao yua zi ji. jus like initial D eh..? hehe..stop here le. LoVE you!

Happy 6th month! A long journery of love.

2005-06-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

Are u tryin to issue me a challenge of my future prospect..? whether how far can i get..? Well, let me tell u this..i accept ur challenge. You knw wat..? i don't have to go to a stupid lib and i will develop like a hot prospect and let u see. let u eat back ur words.

As a mother, u should never doubt ur son ability. Moreover, never compare to his cousins. ur son has his own potential and talent - his specialise. so all the more you should based on this and bring him up. let him has great exposure to it..so he can do well in that particular area. but u are not..? u are comparing..comparing an apple to a pear. u love comparing with my cousin..? abopt him..and dumb me off. i don't give a damn bout it. because in the near future u shall regret ur actions. ur really foolish actions.

you should give him SOME freedom to let him express himself.
haix..

2005-06-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

so am i a guai kia todae..? hahahax..whole dae stuck at home bah. woke up around 1 and troat still pain. and my back from right change to left pain. wth.. =.= had my lunch..and help mum run errands as she was sick.

the whole afternoon was damn boring bah. did nothing but online. fortunately dear was online to pei me. hahahax..around evening went to cs with dear a while. go other server. hahahax..play play play but different team and i killed her. >_< sorry..!!! hehehe...and got quite a nice frags. hahahahax..anyway, dear came and meet me at bbt bah. wahahahax..thanks for coming wor. a while later she went home to eat her FRIED OYSTER. HOR?! hahahahax..

had my dinner flip through the newspaper and found some berserk taoism try to open durians using hands and heads..? lamer sia. got knife for you to open wanna hao lian use hands and heads. next time i use my bird and rip open for you to eat ar..then u knw whose the real boss out there. =x jk jk. hahahahax..!!! watch chal8 and tokin about shoppin stuff bah. tok about bikini..wah lao, the model so slut like that sia. bth..then the MOK damn funny. hahahaha..but really lor, wah lao ask her host this kind of fashion stuff. at least find someone more chio mah. hahahahax..more viewers will be enthu. =p lol...then keep toking about char bor's stuff. no guys one.wah liew..only char bor knw hw to shop meh~ sexism! =x

ah~ whole dae at home is so freaking bored. pathetic little boiboi. ahaha..hope for a better and more entertain tomorrow. =)

2005-06-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

damn..sore troat from that stupid slide up..! hahahhax..todae was one of the fun days during my June hols bah. never enjoy so much.but have to pay a price for that lor. back pain troat sore. -.-'''

woke up quite early todae..receive hy's msg say he wanna call mk they all to go..then he go..bloody hell. stop ur craps lar pls. can u ever have a one on one date...? don't you find it more romantic. you may find we are still young don't too much of that. but have u ever though that been in love is the most wonderful thing you can ever had..? we are young on the way many things will happen to break it apart..so all the more you should cherish the time u had with ur dear right now..and make this love works like magic. make her feel as if she is the most luckiest woman in the world. wat u are thinkin rite now is far too ambitious. future future future..how are you going to think about the future when u are already nt thinkin about present..? give it some thought dube. wake up...

ok enough of that..had my breakfast with a sore troat. watch nba final. hahahax..nearly forget to bathe..faster bathe and walk slowly to the bus-stop to board the same bus as dear. the bus came and we di li siao siao each other on the bus. omG..was so so so happy to see her. coz yesterdae did'nt see at all. =x

we reached and the weather was cold. walk walk walk..and top up the funkey.damn those people in front. make the pple queuing up and the "cashier" frustrated. lame lor..ask so much..jus top-up the funkey and f-O lar. hahahahax..*evil evil* faster chiong to the locker room..tuo diao tuo diao..and went to the shiok river. hahahax..after a round..went to wave pool i guess..?? nah..i play so much things till i forget wat i did..lol.!! went to u-larlar, sky-riders, yakult, waterworks, slide up, tsunami and jacuzzi..!!! ahahax...

many things happen along these rides. first, u-larlar. lol..!!! everything was fine..then at the last part. got one guy..askin for two more people. and we were like.."hmm" then told dear..two more leh..wanna go anot..then we wait wait wait..and kept lookin at that guy..and that guy suddenly call up to us : " ni men liang ke, wo ji de ni men. hai bu yao kuai dian ju shou. kuai dian guo lai." then me and dear : "#$%#$^#$%#$ -..-''' malu sia. " took bout 3 to 4 rides on the u-larlar. after that came the waterworks. dear took off her specs and gave me. then wah lao..coz the ride was a bit bumpy..and the water keep rushin at you. so whenever i go down a while..mus touch my pocket and make sure her specs is still with me. lol..then machiam dancing ma-ke-ray-na =x

next is slide-up. dear was so lovely. hahahahax..was very very scared when i'm at the top. as if i'm gonna pee anytime..sat down..kept quiet. then dear..."muack muack" hahahaha..then HEHE. but that damn bloody assistant..down there.."wanna go down already still wanna kiss" lol. cannot meh..she givin me courage mah. hahahaha..!!! went for 3 rides for that bah. went again and again. till the person.."expert already rite..? knw wat to do already ar..?" -..-'''

another fun thing is sky-riders. dear so di di siao siao. chiong so fast..then i brake. then i cycle..she brake. $%#$^~$^^$%%%$#%$#%!# bth. di siao each other. lol..still childish. after that the jacuzzi. bth..we were *aheming* one kid saw it and said : " bu yao kan nan bian. da men zai *******************" wth...

well, todae was damn freaking fun man..!!! hahahaha..di siao so much pple. lifeeguard also di siao. hahahahax..!!! after www, took bus home and pei dear go uncle louis makan and went home.

*yawnx* so tired. dear, thanks for ur companion wor..! love you lots..! muackx..how's was the sleep on the bus eh? HAhax..

2005-06-14T17:32:00.000+08:00

*yawnx* so bored..completely nothing to do at all right now. hai..pathetic sia. whole day at home doing nothing. woke up in the noon...eat fried rice. ahahaha..so small serving =( did'nt really fill my stomach seh. did some a-maths after my lunch..do do do..~ sian ji bua. suddenly recall i have to go mk hse take ps2. =p

the weather damn hot sia..in the noon..faster went to mk hse after bathing. go there chill down and watch him play world of warcraft.. -.-''' did'nt understand a single shit. hahahaa..say do wat quest don't even knw wat quest.. =x somemore still got wat magic shoot here and there..but i mus say that the game's graphic was perfect sia. damn chio..!!! wOoo..if only i knw how to play warcraft..hahaha but also a bad thing..if knw how to play that..means knw how to play D.O.T.A = goner..! hahahaha..later become neil..play and play and play..end up..mid year both maths failed. hahahaax..also no time pei dear..? hahahaha..end up like jb..HAHAHAHAHa..that will be worse come to worse..

borrow ps2 from him..thought can come home and play..but can't wth..don't knw wass wrong sia. SIAN JI BUa..!!! buay song lo..but aiya..bo bian..on the com and play cs. play a while nia..coz mood. =X my frag all like shit. lol..jus nw play cs:source at mk hse. wah kaox..addicted to source lor..the graphic damn damn damn fuckin chio. bth..!!! but aiya..fat hope lar..no money to buy one..hahahax. wanan buy so much things too. but the no.10 shirt is damn nice..hope can get it someday. =p 10 seh..!!! =x

todae was rather a lonely day bah. dear went out..hmm..friends went to zhiwei hse. hahahax..mus be doing some crap stuffs one lar..confirm is di di siao siao pple. -.-''' dear eat sakae sia..*eat chicken* guess go and have my dinner early bah.

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2005-06-12T22:08:00.000+08:00

woH..todae went out with my dear. hehe..at first wan to go to PP..but in the end went to PS. hahahax..before that was deciding went to go to..hahax..*headache headache* almost everywhere also went to jalan jalan before le. lol...dear, xiao zhu sia...so late then wake up. tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk..forget to eat medicine le lar..miss the time..tml remember to eat wor..! hahahax..

took mrt there..and as usual. di di siao siao each other on the mrt. hahahax..bth, recently everytime disturb each other on the mrt. lol..childish..? nah..it's lovely. HEHe..=x hmm, reach ps..suay suay gastric pain. wah piang..then dear treat me KFC. hahahax..thank you so much. sorry eh..everytime go out..u will treat me things one. hahahax..thank you thank you. then when eating..one girl no table manners. bloody hell..keep staring at our chickens. ass sia. godge out ur eye balls man! then so spoilt lor..wah kaox..bth.

after that went to Yamaha..dear bought her flute stand. hahahax..see her blog. so happy to buy her flute stand. hahahahax..Went to John little and pei dear see BRA. hahahahahaha..a very fun experience..too bad there is no hands-on. lol!!! will suay one..hahahaha..better not bah. lol..then the T-shirt bra..so ex. guy's boxer also not so ex le. hahaha...queensway sell got cartoon cartoon one.$10 nia. that one nothing only got nice texture..$80 le. =O

went to take a look at watch shop too. tryin to see if dear's favourite GUESS design there mah..too bad to no avail. my feet end up kenna stepped by the salesman. *poopoo* bought some breads at breadtalk..and went home lo. so sorry eh..never pei u home..and forget pass u the bread..up till now it is still nt eaten. lol...coz i don't know how to eat CHEESE..HEE.

hmm..guess end here le bah..nite nothing much to tok about. lol..coz it's B.O.R.I.N.G!

2005-06-06T21:24:00.000+08:00

right now in my mind..jus two words : ' Fucked Up' i jus wanna vent out..but could'nt. my brain is boiling everywhere is boiling. i'm really have a very very bad dae..all started with bball. i was really fuckin hell not my usual self. i could'nt perform. flared up. yeah, that's it.

i play in a match..play to win. i never play to lose. my team is falling..i have the urge to turn things right end up doing it in the wrong way. hungry for points and confidence builing up..but jus fall rite down..when teammates refuses to let me have the chance to perform. yeah, true they did pass to me. but at the wrong timee. i was completely free and they ignore my presence. fucking pissed. i was playin nowhere..they got the ball go for their own. i gt nothin to say.

second quarter..during the break. quarell with mr tan. i was damn fucked up by that time. i could'nt accept the fact would'nt give me a chance to show. i wanna perform..i wanna do anything that can make the team wins. i was totally moodless by second quarter. i was playing 'cold' basketball. fine! don't get the ball..i don't get..i let others perform. let me be the clown in the squard. and yes..i am the biggest fool throughout the match. being a laughing stock for some silly actions. running here and there..but could'nt get the ball. then i realised i was jus A PEANUT in the team. everyone is better than me. i'm jus a small peanut. anytime be crushed down. yes...i'm the weakest link. in the national..i'm a already a fool..right now in sch team..i'm the same.

was my mum right when she says..ta qiu bu yao ta dao jiang bing ming...?

a match is jus like a battle. you lose, means u are weak...not up to enemy's match. u win means u are strong. nobody like losing matches jus like war. which country would be happy to see their own country fallen to the opponent's hand. we treat opponent like enemy. we gonna shoot them down. win them..break them apart. we have to set aside our mr nice guy side. be a man..stand out. not for the country but for the sch. we gonna be tough and fight..like we never fight b4. whack the enemies down..show them our power..but not chickening around.

i knw we can do it. we definitely will. maybe i'm jus thinkin too much. i'm born with a victor's mind.

i'm gonna try my best to stop flaring as it will nt do either parties any good..but harm. i wanna train. to be the best. and lead the best underdogs to tournament and bring glory. we will stand out for dunman and win every matches we played. next year will be my last year. i don't wanna leave the sch basketball empty-handed. i wanna be my bro..although i can't single-handedly bring opponents down. but i wil guide..i wan everyone to stop seeing dunman as a peanut team.

i...WANNA win.

2005-06-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

woh..!!!todae was great bah..!!! hahahaha..!!! so shuang..tution was ok-ok lor. ask a-maths ask and ask and ask..till headache..then slp. hehe..but tutor heck care. lol..!! after tution...went to have lunch with aunties and mum..then go home faster wash up and go mit dear. hahahahax..go bowling..wOoO..!!! spend $12 on it bah. but aiya..nvm lor. each play 3 games. damn lor!!! the lane is freaking lousy shit sia..!!! go put the kids thing... $%@#$%$#% first two games were damn sucky bah. maybe warm-up games bah..haha..last game hot ar. 134..!!! wOoOoO..damn song. anyway saw mr cheng also bah. hahahax..he go buy one bowling package sia. siao siao..hmm, bowl so lousy go buy own ball..bOo bOo..!!! after bowl..went to jalan jalan.

can't believe me and dear siao all the way to city hall. lol!!!! damn damn damn fuckin crazy sia. wOoPS! HEHE but it was damn damn funny and freakin fun.di di siao siao here and there. lol.. end here le bah..byex dear..muackx love you!!!!

2005-06-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

todae was damn boring for me!!!! woke up at about 12.40pm bah. hahahax..damn shuang! ahahahax..coz no training, can slp like pig? =x get up..walk around and watch cartoon. cause bo bian ar..those two little kids wanna watch. change the channel a while also cannot..later cry i song tio. hahahahx..

watch watch a while..then went to eat my...lunch or breakfast ar?should be lunch. hahahax..then went to watch cartoon again >_< watch batman begins. don't knw why..bu zi bu jue..i fuckin sian le. play ps2..play play play play. disc spoilt..my mission cannot carry on. sian diao..then change game lor..and play and play and play again. cannot tahan anymore..go on com and play cs with yd. play play play..then find out my awp skills is dropping like shit. hahahax..pathetic..then sian diao..km ask me wanna go sentosa. stupid sia. if i really can go i already go liao lo..still wait for him to ask. hong yu also. lol.

2005-06-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i update blog le hor. hahahax..let's start with my mid year bah!!! Yeah..!!! was glad that i manage to clinich 2nd in class bah. but the results was'nt much satisfactory. mus work harder for my final year. i mus get a schlorship..!!!i mus!!!i gonna keep trying. =)

nowadays training very early le. sian half lor..7.30am. but dear more jia lat. todae wake up so early. sorry wor..never give u morning call.hahahax..i cannot wake up. HEhe..hmm, see dear's blog like seems so fucked up. are you ok? mus tell me leh..if nt i don't knw..althought i knw i read u like a book =p hahahax..well, jus try to lax ar..jus like those pple arrogant lo. they are only making their life harder. they are making pple to hate them more. they scold scold scold may be good or bad. but to me..it's bad lor. they are nt settin a gd example still wanna punish pple. jus lax and chill bah. don't think too much..

2005-05-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

todae is 24 again..!!! this is my 5th month with my dear bah. was really glad that we can last.. =) but i will be much more happy if last through eternity. lol..!!! jk jk.. hmm, well jus hopes it last long and long and long..like fairy tale. hehe.

Dear,
althought 5 months not very long..but i really enojoy ya companion and ur love..!!! hehehe..really appreciated a lot. u did a lot of things for me bah..? hmm, everytime come down from home jus to mit me..even it is quite late..and meet a while only. i'm so sorry wor. but i really love it. =) even though i always tell you don't come don't come. but deep in my heart, really wish u to come. but i don't wanan waste ur time jus to see me for that few minutes.

still got hmm..yeah. but recently thing bah. hmm, i will try to control it. so sorry to make u sad over that...i will not care less or neglect you about it, i will still remain the same old me u wan me to be. i will jus stop my foolish and selfish thinkin bah. whenever i'm dulan over it..after a while think it over..i find that i'm rather childish to do that. haix..well, i will try nt to hmm..you knww bah. hahahax..

hmm, still gt wat leh..hahax..don't knw lar..hmm, end here bah. anyway stay happy always..=) love you lots and lots..!

2005-05-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

wOh..todae was rather a very boring day bah..? schooling as usual lor. quite pleased that my bio manage to at least get a b4. well, although it is still lousy but it's very difficult bah. have to try harder.

the assembly was damn interesting i mus say. the best assembly i ever had during my sec 3 bah. really damn interesting. the lawyer was damn cool though. the journalist is like a piece of dung bah. guess the sch mus have regretted to call upon the him bah. well, for the staff sergant..still average lo. but i jus admire the lawyer. he got the money, everyone hopes for it. he got the power...everything i mus say. quite humurous and inspiring too bah. hahahax..but nah, law is not for me. possible be a family doctor. hohohoho..!

after sch..went to eat with dear..then go home change..went back to sch again for gym training. train train train train. so piss. that _ L like never train at all lor. kaox..keep walkin in and out of the gym to bio charbor. wah lao. pls lar, mai so despo lar. u never met a girl in ur life is it..? jus stop ur bullshit and concentrate on bball. i knw u got 2 more years. i left 1 more year. i don't wanna leave dunman with a hidden talent. i wanna show to the others. wat dunman bball is capable of...wat are the talents...i wanna be my brother. i wanan instill fears in opponent. i don't give a damn about you. you are sometimes arrogant. stop that or u will never improve. i tell you rite now..i gonna win you. i gonna be the key man of dunman next year. i will bring the team to glory even though i'm jus a vice-cap. i got the power...i maybe be arrogant..i knw how to control and be humble. stop ur "style" whenever u score a lot. it would'nt help much. you are...nothing...NOTHING to me.

well, came home from bball lor. play game play and play and play..restart the whole GTA. till certain level very hard to complete..then go bathe bah. then saw dear's msg going to watch amityville. hahahax..good wor. chi ji me. i was stayin the whole dae at home bah..rest of the dae after my bball. then after eatin my dinner..play game again. whole dae is PS2, dear and bball accompanying me. hai..so damn bored. at nite..lucky sis and bro come back early..or else i can commit sucide lor. wah lao eh..then sis give me $5 =p maybe she good mood bah. then give me $10 to go buy wings..then say i wanna eat fish 'n' chips also can. jus buy some wings for her..but aiya..bro and gf at home..so buy 10 wings. hahahahax..

tml training le...national. but still a bit sick. don't know can perform well mah. =( no no mus smile. =)

2005-05-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

hai..jus recover from troat..now ma nose is making ma life miserable. todae got back also all the papers le bah. all sucks i guess. i really did very badly..can't believe i can still ensure my mum my marks would'nt drop. wtf am i..jus a liar bah.

almost all so lousy lor. although i pass..but i can't mit my expecetation lor. kenna kan by ms thong. never will forget. "you date too much or u play too much?" hai. i am jus dumb to get so low marks bah. yeah. i'm stupid. bloody bitch..watch out for my next few exams. i gonna make u eat back ur words. NOTHING IS GONNA AFFECT ME.

Well..basically feeling jus fuck bah. hai..very very frustrated..? don't know why bah. is it too long..things are happenin nah. i don't believe. i only believe if problems start it is me bah. yeah, i'm petty. hai..don't know bah. jus sensitive to it. hate it don't wanna hear it. it tenses me up. stops..everything stops..

2005-05-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

hai..wtf. again and again and again. had enough and jus fucked up.

petty basturb. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jus can't get it WHY

2005-05-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

wth..hmm, could'nt know wat went wrong in my mind. jus kept thinking about that. it should be fine i guess. hai, but jus too high le bah. maybe i'm jus selfish. hope it would'nt get over me. =( but..argh~!!!!!!!! damn lar. cannot tahan man. hope it stops Stops STOPS. if really go on, really can sian tiao. some things may even went wrong man. hai..since it starts get me eating vinegar sometimes..but have to control and stop thinkin much. hope it will not be the cause of the ending of a beautiful life.

2005-05-14T21:45:00.000+08:00

aiyo..todae so pathetic. did'nt saw dear at all. bloody hell. so bored. hmm, yesterdae chat till 2 like that? hmm..todae wake up at 1. hahahaha..si bei song. woke up..found out i got one small cut on my finger..lol.

after that went to eat lunch with mum go cut hair. wahahahahahaha..cut till quite hiong. =x hmm, after that got home and call dear. coz alone at home. si bei sian. chat chat a while only. =( hai..then dear go out with her maid liao. oh man, then sian si le. =( miss ya so badly..~ hai..lazy to go on liao. hahahaha

dear..miss ya lots!!! jus now so sorry..play game pang seh you..sorry sorry..

Miss you lots..!!!

2005-05-12T21:05:00.000+08:00

finally exam going to finish le. hahahax..so happy bah. but it can be a relief and worry. =s relief no need feel so stress..can concentrate on my bball now during the hols and not forgetin can go out with dear more often le? hehehe..

but aiya..scare my result not good leh. =( pray hard my hard work pay effort bah. as for my biology..hai..seems like a margin pass is good enough for me. i don't ask for much.

tml last paper e-maths..paper 2 and combine sci MCQ. hope i can do well and my dear too.

Dear..jia you wor..!!! tml last paper le.. muackx!

2005-05-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

wAh..todae very ke lian liao. kenna pang seh till don't know like wat after english exam, hmm, btw the english exam hai..sux lo. would'nt expect myself to do well in both papers bah. hai..hope it would'nt fail. =(

after exam, went for mam's lesson on periodic table. so sian lo. could'nt stop thinkin about my english exam. sian ji bua. hai..after that saw dear walk past my class..even more sian. thought she go home liao...walk out of the corridor and waited for hong yu and saw dear waiting for me. then wOoOo..!!! shuang..walk faster go find her. but aiya..sad, say she wanna go study with friends at airport. then hai.."oh...lonely liao" hahahahax..but nvm thought hong yu can pei me. but he go his ky. then wah..lan lan lor. jus nice went down to bball court and saw fikri - ma junior..then hai..no appetite to eat alone..then play bball lo. sadden to find out my shootin deteriorating..hmm, after exam mus buck up le. and get ready to chiong for my national final few months b4 selection of national team squad. JIA YOU!!! =x

Play till saw bernard..then me wearin uniform. he wanted to come to me..but i faster "cha bo" with ganesh..hahahaha. faster zhao. in the end he lan lan. anyway my shirt tuck in also. scared wat. =x but aiya..don't wanna see his face. lol..after that went home to play ps2 lor. so si bei sian. after ps2..did my chem and bio..till nite..after dinner. CHIONG ALL OUT. muahahahaha..but me still felt that i'm laggin behind. jia lat..better buck up lots liao. haha.

MID-YEAR...I GONNA BEAT YOU MAN..YOU THIS BLOODY PEANUT.

2005-05-02T20:32:00.001+08:00

wOoOo...shuang ar. hahahahahx..get to go out with dear. but did'nt really go out lar. went to study at airport. first went to lib got there early..then lib close..then went to meet dear at interchange. went to take mrt to airport. hahahax..

reach le..the mac so crowded..wah piang. go find got exhibition hall mah..but converted to walkway for those restuarants. hahahaax..and finally study at marrybrown. DeAr..not MARYbrown. hahahahaha..!!! study study study study study...then till some kaopei group pop out beside us. i study bu xia. shou bu liao. so kaopei. somemore got one is butch sia. hahaha..and one more is machiam an ahgua. wth...so er xin.

after studyin..send dear home. wah, like long time never send u home le. hahahahax..went back home after sendin dear home. hmm, eat dinner..no appetite..coz the foods not nice..sian ji bua. come online till now since dinner. hahahahahx..havent study for tml english exam. hope tml i can go on smoothly bah.

----------------------- DeAr, all the best for ur md-year wor..!!! you can do it..believe in urself and don't stress urself. let's go all out this time round and get good grades. soon take the hols to reward ourselves wor! hahahaha!!! I LOVE EU..!!! MUACKX! =) --------------------------------

2005-05-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

2005-05-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

yEah..today sort of a normal day bah. wake up early in the morning for tution. so tiring..ZZzZzZZzZzZ..after that went to temple for a while..then go home.

::STUDY::
hmm, dear came to my hse today to study..? hehehe..then keep saying her eyes cannot open. lol...ke lian. then come my hse. do a-maths. hahahaha..do and do and do. haiyoh..dear don't forget those basic rules hor..!!! very important you know..? study till 530 like that then me and mum went to bedok and dear came along also. coz took the same bus..? hahaaxx..then on the bus so quiet..did'nt really tok because of mum..somemore mus sit seperately..>.< deAr..so sorry.

hmm, then dear went home stomachache bah..? =( then the bus so damn cold till i alight the bus faster chiong and find toilet. went to mac one.knn..SO DISGUSTING..but hai bo bian..after that went to blk 206 see mum dance line dance awhile..then go makan. then walk walk..went home.

hmm..on the bus. bloody hell. so many weirdos. at first one lao ah ma...board the bus and complain the driver for reckless driving. then tok tok and tok like tokin to herself. after tat behind got one black malay..playing his hp i guess..? play muslim sutra..? bloody hell..-.-''' play till so shuang..me down there.."knn #$%#!$%!$#!$%!#%" after that "nice" muslim sutra..came the CHINESE SUTRA!!! again..one botak chinese guy board the bus..knock the bottle and recite and recite and recite. wah lao..sian ji bua. after that at 201 bus-stop all weirdos alight. AND

PEACE FINALLY!!!

2005-04-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

lalala..how was my day todae. hmm..ok ok lar. nothing much. hahahax..

hmm..readin period that time. that xia lan form teacher..kns. i reading my bio studying for the test..throw my book down the floor..asshole. then buay song..diao her..ask me do survey. anyhow tick..she also lan lan. knn..so rude. think she wat sia. bhb.

then bio test lo. quite difficult lar. flip through correct anot. found out i spell 'glycogen' wrongly. bloody hell. sian ji buan lor. kns. then went for P.E. raining. >.< mr tan say out the napfa results. i got silver. sian ji buan. because i got 2 for my sit and reach. then went to redo. get 46..? hahahaax..shuang shuang. after that zuo do lor. hai..alone walk around. the hall..the canteen. see hy and eeH in the hall like bai chi playing badminton. then hai..shuang le..so lame. went down sit in the canteen alone. so BORING lor!!! then recall last year. wah, me and jeremy everytime fool around. make fun of teachers. hais...it seems that this year i'm so alone in this class. =( then hai..sort of miss jeremy's companion bah. it was damn fun. let's recall wat we did last year.

2004:
hmm me and jeremy are..like to basturb pple. hahahaha. remember attend osman's lesson. then her ass so big. face both of us. we saw le bth..start to comment on it. hahahha..it was really interesting. wat le ar.. 5000, 9000, 10000. hahahaha..seems as if don't like wat. Hahahahahaha!!!! then he don't know tok wat shit. make me burst into laughter. then kenna kan by osman. hahahahahaha..!!!

most suay thing we got was..hmm, kenna caught by bernard. hahhaha..damn lame. we always go to toilet together everytime during the interval between change of lessons. hahaha..then walk walk..SAW BERNARD AT 3H there..!!! hahaha..i quickly..told jem..eh eh, don't look back bernard behind..walk straight and go toilet.hide. hahahaha..then go in..wah, PEACE!

hahaha..but unfortunately..he came in and catch both of us. wah lao eh..!!! so despo to catch us meh. we PEE-ING STILL WANNA CATCH US. BLOODY HELL. then i was making my hair then jeremy was peeing. hahahahhaa!!! then he come in. jeremy kia tio..!!! faster pee..!!! LOL!!! then ok..kenna bird ar wat.

"who give u permission to give both of u to come to the toilet? and why muss u two come in pair..? are u all girls or wat..?need protection..?" knn..lan lan lor. then i "smart"and evil. go say nadiah- the chairman let us come leh. hahahaha..then ask us go back to class..faster chiong back and tell nadiah to pak kak with us. lol!!! then bernard come into our class kan kan kan. after that kan nadiah also because allowing me and jeremy go to the toilet together. hahahaha!!! so suay. then i was listening..and my back was facing him. then he asshole. come in front of me say, "when i'm toking, somebody is not listening. Wu RuiCheng. -pause- ur brother study in this sch rite..? -pause- u are so much different from ur brother..." kns lar..of course i'm different lar. u think we twins ar. i smarter leh. i express he normal. lalalala..wat u wan..!!! hahahahaa!!!

hmm..still got wat..oh yah..! ahahaha..everytime..sci lesson, always kenna bird by mr lim. hahahaha..got one time mr lim call jeremy answer question...jeremy reply.."wat sia!" hahahahaha..then mr lim " wat sia sia huh" hahahahahah..si bei funny bth. then everytime we tok tok tok..is i start one. kenna scold become him. lol..!!! coz my basturb ability is far too much better than my best pal! hahahaha!!!

hmm..wanan go slp liao. lol..byex..!!! woo..sweet memories of 2004. =) jeremy u rox..! lol..

2005-04-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

oh man..todae was a damn bad dae bah!!! went to sch todae..never saw dear in the morning. kaox, jy's dad never fetch them to sch. then somemore she says she may be late. so scare sia. kaox..dear late very scary one. will bin chao chao de.

came to sch. straight away copy some homework. hahahahax..study study..then vocab test lo. after that then blah blah blah..a-maths. quadratic equation..hai. die le..not strong enough liao. better start revising sia. hai..gonna do well for my mid-year. heard from nawal, the mid-year a-maths is very difficult. kaox..scary lo.

chinese..then to cheng's period. suckiest period bah. always give us worksheet.then ask me stand up for not following his instructions. kns. then also ask ask to write compo instead of the plan because the rest never write proper plan out. kaox..my class really sux sia. everytime wanna find trouble. can't be quiet one. fuckers man. then so childish. recess keep throwing paper balls into the bin. lame sia..wanna practise bball find me lar. asshole. who lose me shut the fuck up and stop throwing the paper balls lar. knn.

recess over still cheng two periods. then went for bio. so sian. too late could'nt see dear. hai..~ then come back also never kan dao. sian half. got back physics paper. get highest in class. woo..!!! so shuang. physics over is e-maths. got back the test paper also. got 16/20..!!! woo!!!! hahaha..not bad lar not bad lar. hy cannot hao lian his coordinate geometry liao. hahaha..coz i both questions get full. only lose marks at explainin the property of the triangles.

after sch..went to find dear. found out she stomachache till very jia lat. then hai..heart pain. my blood *splash splash* hahahaha. then try to flap for cab. and she went home. hai..so sorry could'nt pei u go home. tc k..? hai..then went home lo. study study study whole dae. till now. hais..tml still got geog test and chem test. need to score le. esp. chem my chem so sucks..always manage to pass only. i gonna do well this time.

hai..dear went to see doc. then hmm wat ar..weak and irritable intestine. indigestion. cannot eat chilli, milk products and don't know wat le. and never shit enough. hurhur..well, mus really take good care le. and everytime stomachache don't keep thinkin will die. i really very scared. i don't wanna lose you. >.< take good care bah. u will be fine. =) muackx..love you lots..!

2005-04-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

yEahh..afternoon finally got to meet my dear..!!! even though it was'nt long but i was happy enough to see her. b4 that, i was so lonely..and it seems as if it was judgement day. it was so down..and i totally went blacken on the face.

before meetin dear, i was sadistic. lol. bin chao chao till don't know like wat. hmm, everyone says that u will find happiness when u are in love. i finally understand it. whenever i am down or unhappy, u'll always be there cheer me up. and after a few moments, i got back my smile. i don't know how in the bluee hell u did it. but u jus got the magic to make me smile. i was so bad mood today..but it jus erase off when i saw u. i mus say..you're my everything. u got the magic to control me. the magic of love. the sight of me..blanked my mind and can only think of the beautiful moments we had. it jus so wonderful that it may not even be erased from my heart. Right now, i find that u are the girl i wan to be with. you are the one and only one. stay by my side..and don't escape. i'm locking you up in my heartt..always be there for me. for i wan ur magic whenever i need you..

i love you dear. good luck for ur upcoming mid-year. hope we both score well and have a nice break during the hols. let's work hard for our goals.. =) 24 april 2005, 11.02pm. 4 months we been together. 4 months of happiness in my life. i jus live in you.

2005-04-24T14:36:00.000+08:00

hai..alone at home. it can be a wondeful thing but it was'nt at all. bro and sis working. mum went out to dance. left a pathetic kid on his own studyin for his exam.

it was suppose to be a special day. which does'nt seems special to me in anyway. i'm alone at this home. with no one cares and on my own today. how worse is it going to be in the later part of the day..?

totally moodless. sux. a 24 day.
pathetic. lonely. bad. empty.

2005-04-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

wOoOo..!!! today went out with dear to bugis, then go tm. so shuang.

wake up early in the morning call her and ask jennifer got pangseh her mah. hahahax..after tat don't have..ok then go back to slp again. coz todae no need go training. hehe..go see doc. =x wake up at 9 again..sms dear find out where she is. hahahaax..btu still at a-maths. erm 9.30 like that go down makan breakfast with her. hehe..shuang ar..after that pei dear take bus. then go home. reach home le..straight away meet mum at hse void deck and go see doc.

see doc..say my knee very weak especially the vein. and have to drink more milk powder..drink less cold water. then wah, he say mus zhen jiu..to improve faster. then i hestitate..then aiya..heck ar..sacrifice a bit..then he poke two on my leg. instance sharp pain to my leg..and it was damn suan and pain. then he taught me some excerises..to strengthen my knee. after that went home chiong homework.

after tat..tell my mum finish load of homework le wanna go out. hahaha..jus nice she chattin on the phone with auntie. lol..then say.."go where..??" then tell my auntie "my son wanna go meet girl already lar" hahahaha..wth..~

after that 2.30 went off and meet dear..hehe. then i was late. and dear was early this time round..!!! *round of applause* chEErs!!! hahahahaa..!!! then went to bugis..walk walk. so sian..then took photos. hehe..got one mus XXXcensoredXXX hahahaha. then walk walk..go back to tamp to makan. hahaha..after tat saw hy and yd. then di siao hy..coz his curry chicken is there also. but with her parents. lol...then hy hao lian to me..yesterdae match song bo. kns..uu good lar..hao lian lar. i one man still better than u lar. u come lick my ass lar. =x after that send dear home..then go home.watch tv..the 5566 one. damn lame sia. hahahaha..after that come online..wOoO..!!!

tml 24 le. yeah.!!! it will be..4 months? hahahax..even though 4 months is still consider short..but it is very very fun bah..!!! it seems very very wonderful..hahax..hmm, hopes this relationship can last for eternity. rofl..~ yeah..

love you lots...